--but I can't help but wait.

Scenarios are made when you can't stand to think how reality would end up. You want to manipulate the outcome or how the middle of your story would flow. And I'm in desperate need of shutting my brain up.

I didn't care before, you know? It was so easy to think of myself rather than anyone else. And it would be so easy to forget everything and leave them behind. It would be so freaking easy.

But then you'll have a taste of Heaven.

And you wouldn't want to leave. Because then you'll miss every breath, every warmth, every sweet kisses, every loving words passed through lips, just... everything. It's an entirely different world. And you just don't want to leave.

I don't want to leave.

I wanted to travel the world. I wanted to experience different kinds of culture. I wanted to get odd jobs, but be known for my talent anyways. I wanted to be a famous Hollywood actress someday. I wanted to experience everything.

But then you came along.

And every want, every need, every love changed.

You came along... and you were suddenly a part of it.

I wanted to travel the world with you. I wanted to experience different kinds of culture with you and laugh at how unusual most of them are. I wanted to get odd jobs with you, laugh at how ridiculous they are but how fun they can actually be because we have skills. I wanted to be a famous Hollywood actress with you in tow as my leading man. I wanted to experience everything... with you.

We're free spirits... and I was hoping you'd tag along on my journey.

Words are so easy to say. Hoping, wishing, pleading that someday they would come true. So scenarios come up and you can't help but think of all those things that might happen along the way. It's so hard to be in love.

So fucking hard.

But you can't help it, you know?

You just can't.

So you get scared.

And you think.

Think some more.

Until everything appears through the glass of your eyes. And the sting would be unbearable. All because of those scenarios of which that you materialize in your mind... just because you can't accept how reality would take its course.

Now... all you can do... is wait.