Now who would have thought about that little word in such a short time? I, for one, would like to work things out in the quickest possible way. Time is gold. And I don't want to waste another second of it without you.

I think to myself. What a wonderful world! And yet I see so many knooks and crannies that hide too many shadows. I'm scared to check them out, but I do anyways. Sometimes nothing's there, and yet... most of the time, I see cracks, dust, and webs that need to be cleaned up.

Have you ever thought of just forgetting things because it would be easier on your behalf? It's a bad habit... to stay as cold as ice and just not care. But when I come back to reality, the tears won't stop coming and you'll wish that you were nonchalant once again.

Why do I keep thinking? And why do I let you suffer for my wrong-doings? Can't I just keep it to myself and not act selfish? He has his own problems, why don't you help him with that instead, huh?

So when you started to walk away, I wanted to tell you so badly to stay. Please, don't go away. Don't leave me. I need you. And all I could do was pull you in my arms. Hug you. And murmur incoherent things I couldn't even remember.

You didn't deserve to be treated like that. You deserved so much better. And I knew I wasn't giving you what you deserved. I know someone else would've done a better job. But you know what? I'm selfish. And I need you. I love you. And I can't let you go. I just hope you don't mind.

And when those tears fall, you'll know. I haven't been doing well, have I?

I haven't been doing well at all and I feel so guilty.

Because you deserve to be treated so much better.

But I can do better.
I promise I will.