Rainbows and Cookies

I feel like trying my voice out.

2011-08-16T01:24:00.001-07:00

I think my voice has talent.

Maybe it's a sign? Hahaha. I've been having a bit of a small breakdown regarding life at the moment (I do miss my ducklings a lot). Maybe a job that's really random would take my mind off of the harsh reality of death. Cynical, might be. Or maybe I just need some ice cream in my system.

Double dutch ice cream does sound good right about now.

Re-direct me to somewhere better.

2010-02-27T03:11:00.001-08:00

Follow me on LiveJournal.

You'll probably get lost in the process.

http://ellicole.livejournal.com

Sabaw.

2009-06-30T09:16:00.001-07:00

I didn't mean to make you jealous.
Nor make you feel like you're worthless to me.

I didn't mean to keep you guessing--
whether I'm dating on days I'm free.

I didn't mean to keep using your friends--
into making you the funny guy I loved seeing.

But I can't help but love the way you look at me,
after all the curses and the screams of frustrations.

And I just want to take care of you and--
make you feel like you're not alone. I'm here.

Don't worry. I won't leave you alone.

Can't say.

2009-04-26T20:51:00.000-07:00

But I just like it when you care.
Even if you're an asshole about it.

So don't stop. :)
Even when you said you will.
Please, deep inside, just don't.

Level lower than before.

2009-04-25T14:47:00.000-07:00

When you kissed me on the forehead.
On the cheeks.
On my shoulders.

And told me you missed me.

And told me you loved me--

as a sister.

And then I cried.

Why can't you erase those messages, then?

... why can't I?

It's not about listening to words anymore... but listening to actions.

So tell me, you, what do you really want? What are you telling me?

Because getting drunk alone can't numb the feeling.

You were there. You were frowning. You were worrying.

Take care of yourself. I'm always worrying for you.

But... what do you want?

I hate sad endings.

2009-04-24T20:19:00.000-07:00

So right now, the book I've been focusing on is Good Omens since I have four days to read it before the owner takes it back. Anyways, from what I've gathered, it's about the planning of the apocalypse and the fallen angel, Crowley is aiding Hell to victory.

There's this story that I've read in the book--more like information about a place, but it has a story, nonetheless--and it's about this saint, Beryl. She was betrothed to this pagan, Prince Casimir. On their wedding night, she prayed to God for Him to intercede but instead, he gave her the ability of endless chatter.

She was strangled by the prince and she died as a virgin.

I hate sad endings.
So I switch the TV off--
and turn it on again...
Hoping the ending would change.

Oo nga pala.

2009-04-23T08:22:00.000-07:00

Hindi nga pala tayo,
Hanggang dito lang ako,
Nangangarap na mapa-sayo.

I've expected too much. I guess it's time for me to back down. Even for just a little. Because I'm lucky you're a good friend. And maybe, the reason why since I've met you--and I've felt those butterflies--I couldn't seem to look for anybody else.

I missed those butterflies.

And I haven't felt those in a while.

So I dreamt of that.
That dance that you got.
Sway of hips and small pecks.
Lips against each other's.

You said dreams don't mean anything.
I wish they did sometimes. :P

For a change.

2009-04-22T09:12:00.000-07:00

Where's my breather?

Sometimes, I wonder why I always seek for the pain that comes along with knowledge. Like when I read a really long, boring book... in the end, even if it's one tiny fact, I actually have the pleasure to learn something new.

And sometimes, with emotions it feels as if when I hurt, I'll always have the reason to fight more for it because it's worth it in the end. Or so I hope.

It's funny how everything conspires against me now.

The people I love as friends fall for me. And the guy I want to fall for me just won't.

Because I'll always be seen as the girl who's one of the guys.

But hey, since it's a privilege... I'm happy.

Future is where?

2009-04-21T18:58:00.000-07:00

My dad gave me a talk about my future and compared it to his from before.

He gave me the reason why he's so loose with me... because he never got that freedom from before. And I'm grateful that he understands me. I really, really do. But for him to say that I've lost my identity--

--I honestly don't think I have precise one, yet.

And for him to say that I'm not doing well with my classes... well, once upon a time I had fours in almost all my terms and he didn't even notice them. He just said, "is that the biggest grade you've got?"

... well, it is, technically.

Sometimes, I just feel so under-appreciated.

Infatuation is like.

2009-04-21T08:34:00.000-07:00

Baby, you should paint my love.

You are so annoyingly weird! I swear, I don't know why I even like you sometimes! You probably even know that I like you. But then you tease me to Mr Potter and my exes! From my analysis of men from before, when they tease you, it means they like you but you! Omg. You are so different.

Because I know you just want sex. Oh, but not from me, right? Cos I'm one of the guys.

And I don't even know if I'm your type.

Your brother said I was. But then again, maybe your brother is screwing around with me.

So why the hell am I wasting my time with you?

We do it like that.

2009-04-19T20:36:00.000-07:00

Saturday night. April 18, 2009.
An interesting day, indeed.

As I awaited to be picked up by Topet at my pad, my friends: Ralph and Vya, hungout at my place and we watched Longest Yard and Old School. But then again, I was doing my papers while they were cuddling on my bed. Haha.

They went off around 6 PM, though. And I was left to ponder whether I would still get out of the house. And Topet texted that he was gonna pick me up around 9 or so. The asshole picked me up at 10. Haha. And I was already so sleepy.

As soon as I got in the car, he "introduced" me to two of his friends that I already know. Haha.

And then he said, "Where's your glasses? Aw, now you don't look like a secretary."

I can only roll my eyes. What a turd.

I almost stayed quiet the whole trip and he was curious why I wasn't so talkative and hyper. I can only smile in the darkness and basically, I just felt awkward being the only girl in the car. So he wrapped his arms around me and held me close--when he noticed his friends looking, he loosened his hold but didn't move. Haha. But it was fun listening to them being perverted assholes.

We got to the bar and he paid for my entrance. Haha, and he should since he was the one who invited me and all. Tsk. We went inside and we saw a lot of Canlubangers there. Haha. That term is really retarded but anyways--

--basically, what went on that night was he bought me a WengWeng and I drank two beers. I was supposed to help him look for a woman, but all he got was me. Haha. He didn't leave my side and he acted like a protective boyfriend. He held my hand and hugged me from behind. He took my hand and danced with me at the side. It felt as if I was the only person around as he took my frail body and held it against his own. Haha.

Oh. And I destroyed private property.

It ain't a party when you don't destroy private property. ;)

The bouncer even gave me a long lecture about getting drunk. Haha. And Topet was just there, laughing at me. Ergh.

Oh, and I puked on the side of the street. Humiliating night, but fun nonetheless. Haha.

I like him.
What's stopping you?
I'm not his type.
You are. Just let him do the work.

I realized in the car that... as he held me in his arms and rubbed my back to calm me down, he really is a gentleman. And the whole night, when he was supposed to have fun and not even mind me that much, he never left my side.

I don't know why... but suddenly, I felt butterflies.

And here I thought--

2009-04-18T04:30:00.000-07:00

You're nice one time and an asshole on another. And I don't know whether you're here for laughs or spell trouble. Dear, why won't you try to give me a scream? I want to tell you how much I hate it when you keep on swaying on other women's feet when--I'm. Right. Here.

But then again, you remind me so much of him.

You're nice one time. An asshole on another... but then again, you spell trouble.

I shouldn't even fall for all the dirty tricks my mind plays when all you want is to get laid.

In front of you.

2009-04-17T09:45:00.000-07:00

notice those stares.
amidst perfect stairs.
of contentment.

notice me.
you stupid idiot.
and why i hate you.

Knocking on my door, just a little.

2009-04-16T18:57:00.000-07:00

I've got this cut from last night.

It hurts and I want it gone. :'(

Anyways, too much to drink. Hangover is a bitch. Jager shots & Jagerbombs, vodka, mudshake, and TonTonaters. Joke times, creepy times. All the same... they're all good times. The cross-shaped stars point to the north. And the big dipper at the opposite side.

When you get lost, just look for them up at the sky. You'll find your way. :)

Mr. Prick, who do you think is so pretty?
Mr. Good Guy, is it okay for me to pick?
Mr. I-Don't-Care, would you rather I stay?
Mr. I'm-Not-There, do you even miss those days?

I am my own self-worth and man.

2009-04-15T07:59:00.000-07:00

I'm dealing with reality and trying to survive.

From what I've heard--

2009-04-13T11:15:00.000-07:00

--destiny is death. It's our free will that gives us the choice how we get there.

What is essential is invisible to the eye... and most likely, it's my intuition that always serves me right. *smiles*

Just smile.

2009-04-11T04:11:00.000-07:00

Because I don't know what to do or feel anymore. :)

Close your eyes.

2009-04-09T04:16:00.000-07:00

Hey happiness.

I miss you. When are you coming back?

I need you.

Don't leave me, okay?
I'm still here.

We didn't get to watch the fireworks before--and it's such a shame--but I took them so you can see them and remember that within darkness, there's light at the end of the day. More beautiful, vibrant with different colours--scattered--in blank canvas.

Because when I close my eyes,
I dream of you. Just you.
Only you.

But you're slowly...
m o v i n g o n.

While I'm stuck in this
make-believe fairytale
with no ha p py- end in g.

Hay pag-ibig.

2009-04-08T08:32:00.000-07:00

Pusong inakalang ayos na...

Pusong bigong hindi pa rin humihilom,

bakit ka ganyan?

[litrato na ginawa bago pa mag-hiwalay. Sayang at hindi mo nakita.]

Ikaw pa rin ang laman.

I wonder why--

2009-03-23T08:47:00.000-07:00

--even with everything you're putting me through, I still find all the little things that keeps on making me love you.

Hungout with ate Anna, MJ, and James today at The Point. Haha. And then hungout and chatted and met up with other Koreans. It was absolutely fun. Haha.

I--

2009-03-22T23:24:00.000-07:00

--am still crazy.

You'd let everything he does go.

2009-03-21T21:40:00.000-07:00

Uta no youni, koori tsuku kisetsu sae kaeranara.

I'm not trying to win you back.
I'm trying to win you over.
Like a girl crush, I'm no sober.
But baby, all I want is to win you over.

I didn't go to any of my Saturday classes. I decided to become a bad influence to my friend, Alexis, and we played L4D instead and met up with Nap at PC Buts and Tacky at 7/11. Around nighttime, ate Anna picked me up and we went to the church for the Lenten Recollection. Afterwards, we dropped off some people at Brgy. Malamig and I'm seriously tired.

Oh, and I'm posting a new novel on Facebook called, "Star-Deceased". The title sounds weird so it might be just a temporary name. Anyways, excerpt? Here you go:

“So… you’re going to treat us out, right?”
He smirked as my head turned to him in shock, my jaw dropped and my eyes wide open. My voice wouldn’t come out from my lips as I mouthed the words, but not saying them.“W-what?” I stuttered. “B-but… I’m broke!”He raised a brow at me and said haughtily, “I just saw earlier that you had six hundred bucks in your wallet, rich kid.”
I cringed and he knew he won. The bastard, I seethed silently.

Moving mountains.

2009-03-19T07:28:00.000-07:00

I couldn't even release the tears I'm holding on to in my own room now.

I need to let them out. But I can't. I don't want to look weak in front of my family.

I had my heart open, ready and steady. And when I checked again, it was gone and all that was left were trails of blood... almost forgotten. I can do this, you know?

But what to do when the psychological / emotional problem I have started in my very own home?

If I could, I'll fight for you.
If you let me, I would.

If you want, I'll stay for you.
If you don't... no more.

Tears, don't you fall.
Not now. If you can--
never at all.

Luckie me, luckie you.

2009-03-18T05:49:00.000-07:00

I HAVE A NEW PUPPY.

And I don't know what to name her, yet. Haha! My sisters keep on teasing me to name her after... *cough*, though so I could remember him but then again... she's a girl. Haha! But I want to name her Luckie, though. Hmm.

Well... today~ I hung out with Lexy and Myco! We played Left4Dead and then ate at Mc D's for some late lunch around... 2 PM. Haha! Afterwards, some ice cream and slurpees at 7/11. Then we went to Bel Air 1 and chilled at Myco's pad!

We played with his game console and talked. Haha.

I didn't know I was talked of by friends that I trusted. Really... who can I trust nowadays? Haha! Seriously, people. I'm trying to attract good Karma. Help me out here, won't you? I don't want to think that I'm going to sail alone here in this journey with issues that I have yet to sort out.

And wish me luck on this plan I have! Can't wait. :3

Tues-date.

2009-03-17T07:57:00.000-07:00

A date with two of my BBs.

I missed them muchos. :)

Bad note: Failed TRIGMAT due to absences. Shiz. And I look dead... in a weird pale way. Haha! And I'm scared of commuting now. I thought I was going to die as the tricycle driver drove too fast along the dark road going to my village. Ugh. Must. Remember: No such thing as luck.

I laugh.

2009-03-16T17:47:00.001-07:00

Happy 21st birthday, Kyle Lazo!

I had uuuuuber fun jamming with you guys. And your dad is so awesome. Haha. Anyways, the food was great. The company was great. The jamming was great. And although it drizzled, it was still great. :)

My voice changed, though. Haha. But it sounds "cooler" or so Paul Junio says. Haha! And apparently, I was a "gatecrasher" even though I was unofficially invited by people. Haha! Ohwells. :P

Hey happiness.

2009-03-15T07:59:00.000-07:00

Independence. Freedom. I say hello.

He's in love with the world and--
sometimes these feelings can be so misleading,
He turns and says, "Are you alright?"
Oh, I must be fine cause my heart's still beating.

I just can't wait for summer to come. ♥

So... still in love. Still hooked. But hey, what can a girl do? Just wait and let him come to you. ;)

Note to self: I seriously should try becoming an actress someday. I'm so good at acting it makes me want to slam my head against the wall. Haha!

I have 302 blogs--

2009-03-14T01:40:00.000-07:00

--and you're in 289 blog posts.

Sometimes, silence is the loudest kind of noise.

Back when it was so easy. Like one, two, three... without the square roots and the variables from a to z. Like when chemistry didn't mean check out the temperature and if the ingredients were right, but how you blend with the person you love and how you feel happy when they're around.

Back when holding hands meant never letting go and keeping you till the end of the get-go. Like when poetry is romantic and the words used were deep and the response would be ecstatic. Like when playing with her hair meant I like you and I don't mind spending this time with you, because it meant so much more.

Like when you get lost, you stay where you are and wait. Because you'll know someone will look for you... and someone will always find you. Like when you were at the smoking area and you were writing on the ground as I watched you from afar. Wishing I was there to draw with you, talk to you, laugh with you, and just be with you.

And back when all I have ever done was write you love poems. And some days there will be the occassional hurt poetry but they wouldn't really matter. Because deep down, there will always be those love poems amidst the scary black cloud that surrounds it. And I wrote you those love poems, everyday, with those soft sweet words of surrender when I kiss your jaw and snuggle on the crook of your neck--

--and all I ever wanted was your kisses.

Want to kiss you beneath that mane of hair. Want to kiss you as I hugged you from the back and your nape ready and bare. Want to kiss you with open eyes and smile as I see your eyes closed. Want to kiss you in front of strangers, uncaring and display of how everything is. Want to kiss you on your earlobe and see your lips lift up to a grin. Want to kiss you on the nose, your cheeks, your eyes, your lids, your eyebrows, want to play with your hair as I hold your head steady.

Want to kiss you and tell you I love you.

But that was back when it was so easy as ABC and not caring how many numbers there are after one, two, three. So now I keep all these feelings bottled up in silence. And time is all I'm counting on when all I want will come amidst this space.

Because sometimes, silence... really is the loudest kind of noise.

Next time I hold her, I won't let her go, he says.

2009-03-13T03:14:00.000-07:00

If he still loves you, then he'll go back.

If he comes back to you...

... then you'll know it's true.

Last day of the CA week. Wasn't what I expected... wasn't what I wanted. But then it happened. So really... who could I blame? Haha. Life... it's some crazy shit that I have to live. And I lost so much weight. Damn. I'm a skeleton.

I had so much optimism last night. I was so positive that I was grinning like crazy. I had so much hope, but then again... today. I wasn't even so sure about it. Haha! People keep on asking me how I was holding up--

If I could say what I want to say,

I'd say I want to blow you... away;

Guess I'm wishing my life away,

With these things I'll never say.

Oh damn.

2009-03-12T09:50:00.000-07:00

Is optimism such a bad thing?

And--people keep on telling me... "time" but then my heart (and the beer talking) tells me that I should start on "the work".

Isn't it too early?

Pre, malay mo--

bukas wala ng oras.

Mas maganda ng--

maaga. Hahaha!

A corner.

2009-03-11T06:13:00.000-07:00

Just because.

I lost four pounds in two days.

2009-03-10T07:59:00.000-07:00

Everywhere I go, there you go. With that goofy smile and that hilarious laugh. I open my eyes wide and I can see you there. When I blink for a minute, you go away. But when I close my eyes and imagine, I can feel your kisses.

[this is the look of a girl with no sleep.]

Might've failed my TRIGMAT exam again... but I'm trying to attract the good vibes so no. I'm not going to fail. Yes? Haha! Oh! And I curled my hair. I like it. I might do it continuously from now on. Just to distract myself right now. :)

[ATC. Burger King. Sundae. White Chicks. Half-Baked.

Little black dress. Lingerie. Groceries.]

Time.

2009-03-09T08:26:00.000-07:00

Hello?

Fever dreams.

2009-03-08T06:46:00.000-07:00

In the mornings when I wake up--

--I would wish you were beside me.

Ang Unang Kendeng ni Nene.

2009-03-07T19:24:00.000-08:00

I was late for DEVCOMM class for an hour--like always. It was our report for our COMCOMM today. I think we did well. Thank God. Around lunch time, our professor dismissed us early, so Lex, Cat, Jem, Sandovie, and I went to Paseo and had lunch.

Lex and I went around to ask for prices. We then went to Humana and was going to ask Roy for a price list, but apparently, he was busy. So we went to Jollibee instead and ate lunch.

After some lunch, which was around 2 PM, we were already late for our next class. Lex and I went back to Humana and picked up Jordan and Sho. We went to class, but not really. After that stupid stupid time, we went back to Humana and hungout till 6-something.

We (Bee, Roy, Sho, Jordan, Mickey and I) went to Bicutan for Ralph's gig at The Checkpoint Bar under Brainchild Productions that night. We were early so we went to Pizza Hut and ate dinner. When we went back, we were still early so we stayed on the front steps with the rest of the semi-early people. Haha.

The bands who played were just awesome. Really. The range was from Metal, Chill, JRock, and Rock. Mostly metal. I had fun. Went home around 4.30 AM really, really tired that I fell asleep in the car in Joji's arms. Unfortunately, he had to move to the back, because there was already space.

Thank you, Roy, for the awesome day. Thank you, Jordiee, for lending me your 50 MM lens. And thank you, Bumbum... for the hugs and care. :)

Southside.

2009-03-06T08:50:00.000-08:00

The exam on TRIGMAT was moved to next week! Omg, yay!

Skatepark at Calamba. And then Yellow Cab at Paseo for a midnight dinner.

So young and naive.

2009-03-05T04:29:00.000-08:00

Day of boredom.

Vow.

2009-03-04T07:43:00.000-08:00

Bee picked me up from my pad around lunchtime and we went to the LTO at Susana Heights. The wait was long, but I didn't feel like it was. We probably stayed there for an hour and a half, but the time was quick to pass.

I finally have my student's license after two fucking years of waiting. You read that right.

We walked around SM Muntinlupa for a while and went on the road. We had a pitstop at the gasoline station going back to Laguna. We ate at McDonald's and chilled for a while. Afterwards, off to his pad where we took naps.

We woke up around 7 or so and had a tickle fight. That's right.

I facebooked. He multiplied. Listened to imeem.

And off I go home.

Kapag ikaw nawala sa akin siguro--

lahat ng babae... lolokohin ko.

Pag-ibig, kasintahan, may malalim na kahulugan.

2009-03-03T08:45:00.000-08:00

I went to Bee's place after my TRIGMAT class. Walked through the searing heat, but it was worth all the trouble.

Photoshoot with Bumbum. ♥

After that, he took me to SM to watch this Filipino movie called, "You Changed My Life" or something along the lines of that. And it actually reminded me of our own love story. Haha. Oh my.

We ate pizza from Pizza Hut, buttered popcorn, Pasta Bowl and Snack box from KFC for dinner. Haha. It was a fun day. Although, I'm dreading my TRIGMAT exam on ~~Thursday~~Friday. Oh my. I do hope I pass. *fingers crossed*

I'll figure things out.

Time will tell.

What do you see?

2009-03-02T08:00:00.000-08:00

As a good friend once said, "We see a lot of things that we didn't see in our future when we were kids that are now here, anyway."

Take what it is when it happens.

Insane? No. Raaaaaamen. Let's change restaurants, since I'm craving for it. Do you think I'm already the one? Heaven doesn't need porn because they're all naked up there, anyways. You're so beautiful... thank you. Ichi. Oh? Nasaan na yung kapal? Well, I played frisbee and I learned new tricks, Bee. Orly? Well, I can beat your arse on that even though I'm wearing a skirt. *raises brow* Or... maybe not. Because you're so manly and so strong. Oh my. Damn right.

Am I insane? No, why are you even thinking that way? Then why are you thinking that way? Bullshit. I love you. How much? This much... from this point, all around the world, until this point. My girlfriend is so smart. You're so awesome. I expect so much more from you. It's how I see myself in the future. As much as I want to, I keep hoping that maybe--

I just want to be

a part of you.

Eleventh.

2009-03-01T19:18:00.000-08:00

Happy 11th Monthsary, Bumbum!

I went to SM with my family for some grocery shopping. Haha. Basically, that's what's all that happened today. And we watched the Oscars around the nighttime. Although, I feel bad for Bee's family since what's happening right now. I do hope his gramma's sister gets better or if not, may her soul rest peacefully.

Missing you.

We dance, we play, we rant, we rave.

2009-02-28T21:47:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday, Antoinette (my dear dramatic sister)~! ♥

Baked mac. Cards. Pusoy dos. Bluff? No, bullshit! Two exams. Two. What are you wearing? You look really beautiful today. How was your first kiss? Aw, ka-ibigan. So what are you making? Oh, let me guess... a video. I need a picture of him and me doing the some pose. I'm shy that way. I know when you're feeling down. You have this aura surrounding you and I can't get through. Cat. Alexis. I hope you're not mad... I'm sorry. Mirror door. You. Looking at me. Smile. Look down. Paano ito... monthsary pa namin bukas...

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--wildlife.

2009-02-27T07:52:00.000-08:00

Today was uber fun (if not a bit tiring).

Had a really silly shoot with a bunch of my friends, namely: Cat, Zy, Myco, and Jordiee around the afternoon after our ASIAWST class. We watched Dangerous Beauty which had more passionate sex than anything else I've watched... lately. Haha.

But anyways, then, Jordiee, Paul Victor, and I went to Humana. I saw Bee there. And anyways, Paul and I went to PC Butlers to check-out who were playing. I was supposed to play Left4Dead but then, there weren't any available PCs. So Paul and I went back to Humana.

The boys: Bee, Roy, and Ralph skated. I took pictures alongside Jordiee. And hungout with Paul and ate Anna.

Until nighttime, where the regular skater boys around that area went there. They all skated and it was so awesome. Haha. They were all so good and so funny... it looked like they were all high. Haha. Oh, and Craig came!

And then the boys skated some more.

I went with Paul to Jollibee for some dinner. When we went back, the boys were still skating. Haha. Except they let little kids borrow their boards and it was so sweet. Haha. Then, we went to the Jollibee walkway place and hungout there.

Craig dropped me off at home. And oh my gosh, so many pictures to upload. Dammit...

... but I'm glad to learn something new. :)

Childlike.

2009-02-26T07:33:00.000-08:00

Is it any wonder how I miss your smile?

Is it any wonder how I write?

Pages layered upon pages--

which to no one else but me can be accounted for.

For this moment's sake.

Oh is that blood? Blue cheese. Love love love. Death Face. I want to pee. Eggs and corned beef. We have to finish everything. Hugs. Facebook. You didn't think I was kidding? Skateparks. Pasong tamo. Okay, someday, we'll commute going to Makati so you'll know. Better take note of that. Carpet burns. I'm the drama queen. Friendster. Aww, I miss her, too. Exposed. Tears. I love you. I love you. Headband and dresses and terraces.

And oh my gawd, I can't believe it.

2009-02-25T08:53:00.000-08:00

Ashes on your foreheads.

The 13th day of my period.

Please say goodbye soon.

Just the usual day for boredom. :)

If anything's growing--

it's our history.

Thespian, I say.

2009-02-24T07:01:00.000-08:00

I admit.

Today hasn't been very good for me.

Or lately, for that matter. But ain't it sweet to know that people actually believe the smiles you conjure up in front of them? Ain't it awesome to believe that every person you talk to, every person that laughs with you, everyone thinks that everything is dandy?

Ain't it just absolutely wonderful?

I'm in the state of... hey, I'm that girl who wishes things were different.

I wish that you knew when I said two sugars--
actually... I meant three.

Basically, I wish people would look beyond what's presented. And now I'm starting to understand you a little bit more, Nicol.

Anyways, good luck to the ILAW and LACAD party alike in the elections. I can't really say who'll win, but in all honesty, I hope politics won't be the reason for friendships to end. Friends are far more important than pride, hunnies.

And as for myself, a little note to self: Stop being weak. Grow some balls, or in your case, some dignity.

I wish you couldn't figure me out,
but you'd always want to know what I was about.

Go ahead and just smile.

2009-02-23T06:08:00.000-08:00

Okay. Another plan that went down the drain.

I don't want to go into detail anymore, but anyways. I was bored so I watched a movie, but not really. I listened to Lily Allen the whole day and then had a boredom shoot again. Same shit, different bucket, I guess--except for the thirteen missed calls I got from Bee, haha.

Mr. Happy, where are you?

2009-02-22T20:24:00.000-08:00

Walking under the sun is actually fun as long as you have trees for shelter. Haha.

I reached Bee's house around 3 or so and then watched The Last Samurai. Then The Simpsons and afterwards, Spongebob Squarepants. We ate pasta for dinner and chocolate cake, and then his family came.

Hungout with Sammie. Afterwards, hungout with the brothers and we all wrestled. Haha. It was fun.

Anyways, there was an issue today. Remember the shoot in a previous post of mine? Yeah, it has something to do with that. But I'll keep you guys posted when I get more info on that.

Patience, dear.

2009-02-21T09:06:00.000-08:00

Saturday classes are so shitty.

After class, which I didn't even give my attention to, I went with Bee to Humana so we could meet up with Roy and his parents. Off to Sta. Elena and hungout there. I played Final Fantasy and Devil May Cry on PS2 and fell asleep at their second floor living room.

Really, the whole day was spent sleeping or napping. Haha.

Tiring. Very tiring.

Knock on my door.

2009-02-20T08:50:00.000-08:00

Today has been a weird day.

After my ASIAWST class with Bee, I hungout with the ILAW party (Jordiee, Paul Viktoree, Nicole S, and this dude who I forgot the name of I'm sorry). After that, Bee, Jordiee, and I went to Paseo (thanks for the ride, Mikee!) and met up with Roy and Mickey.

We commuted to Mc D's and Bee treated me out to the Chicken burger. Then, off to his pad.

We watched Friends and Scrubs! Absolute love!

But during Scrubs, Roy and Mickey went to the other room and Jordiee went home. I hope you feel better, Jordiee. Tsk.

Bee and I were left alone in the room and I admit, we tousled. Haha. But more of a playful thing and we watched this Korean movie, "Love is Magic". Haha! We waited for the couple to come back, then they took me home so I could write my paper for DEVCOMM.

And yay. I'm done. :)

And HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ALI~ ♥

Different bucket.

2009-02-19T10:20:00.000-08:00

Today was different.

I went home after the GA meeting that came after COMPART and then, Bee called me around 12.30 asking if I could take pictures of the school. So he picked me up and I did. And then I went around the school with Myco (partially) and Sean.

I hung out at the wallow tree and took some more pictures--alone, though. Haha. Emo.

Then, when I went back to the cafeteria, I met Bono... the pedobear. Haha. I hungout with Jordiee and him till Pappi came and chilled with us, too, because class was boring. Tsk.

Bee came, then we borrowed Bono's mini laptop so Bee could download his report for our class, but the lappy was too slow. So I watched The Nanny Diaries while he asked the IT staff to download his report for him. Tee hee.

His report was awesome, btw. ♥

After class (actually, we went ahead by fifteen minutes), we (Bee, Roy, Jordiee, and I) went to Makati to check out the photoshoot of ate Liezl and kuya Eric. We took random shots, but the shoot took so long that we couldn't get our chance. Tsk.

We met new Japanese friends, tee hee. Sir Shinji-san and Naka... shita-san? I forgot the older dude, but yeah. They were planning to bring a new line to the Philippines. I forgot the name, but it rivals Armani and the others, Bee said. I wish we could get freebies, though. Haha.

While the shoot was on-going, we went to Greenbelt for some dinner at CPK. (thanks, Bee!)

After dinner, we went to the Shangrila hotel to check-up on little Sammie because she was sick. Aw. We went back to the shoot and got our stuff, afterwards, went to Bee's condo to chill for a while. We watched the first part of this Jackass movie about getting laid. Haha.

Then, off to Bee's tito's pad to get Bee's car. We went to Hungree Burger afterwards and got huge-ass patties and we ate it along the way. We had a stop-over at Petron and bought drinks. (thanks, Jordiee!)

And finally, off to home. We dropped off Roy first at Sta. Elena before Bee and Jordiee dropped me off at my pad. It was a different day... and I had a lot of fun. I wish I had a car, though, so I could experience new things everyday, too. Haha.

Ohwells, all I can do... is wait.

Collect and reflect.

2009-02-18T05:56:00.000-08:00

Tagaytay for recollection. ♥

A lot of pictures... as expected. Haha. It was a fun experience... although the talks were a bit boring. But as Ralph stated, it was just the "tamang chill" type of hangout. Pictures, fly in the soup, and the maturity talks. Haha.

Why would you give someone the

chance to tell you what exactly

is your SELF-WORTH?

"True Love Waits", or so he says.

2009-02-17T07:24:00.000-08:00

Absolutely tiresome day.

I was late for TRIGMAT again, and I only got to actually stay for 10 minutes or so. After that, hungout with Cat at the COMLAB and tried to hack to the system. Failed a few times but we got to hack it! Yay. Free internet.

But anyways, we went to the INLUVKNB talk at the auditorium and I must say that it was actually quite an interesting symposium. The speaker talked about sex. Haha. All the points he has given were valid and at the same time connects to what the youth stands for on the topic of sex.

After that, hungout with the ILAW party.

Went home with Jordan and Paul by shuttle... but on foot as soon as I was dropped off at the spine road.

You gotta be stronger than you appear.

2009-02-16T05:50:00.000-08:00

I hated today.

It was tiring. I was exhausted the whole day. I made our brochure alongside Bee while Pat and Tres presented it in front of the class. I don't even think that sir thought we made the brochure. Fuck.

Anyways, tiring. Just... absolutely tiring. But at least I made Bee feel a little bit better when I gave him chocolate and my third card. :)

Smoking ain't the way.
Music is a better vice.

Paranoia.

2009-02-15T18:34:00.000-08:00

Alright, a post-Happy Valentines' Day celebration for me and my family (well, including my tito Jun who's too freaking noisy. Oh gads, he annoys me). We had pizza, chicken, and pasta! It was delicious.

After eating, I went around Paseo and I bought my medicine.

But I already felt dizzy... I had to go to mass, though, to pray for my wretched soul. Although, I didn't get to stay because my dizziness was already taking control of me. So I went home.

Talked to Joji and then played on Facebook till I fell asleep.

It felt a million miles away.

2009-02-14T17:59:00.000-08:00

So... Valentines.

My first actual Valentines day that I get to spend with someone I love. I used to spend Valentines either with friends or alone because guys used to find it easier to just give me teddy bears and flowers and they think it would already make me happy.

Unfortunately, the memories on that day means so much more to me than just the gifts I receive. So I'll let the pictures speak for themselves. :)

[He showed up at my house with these. ♥]

[Some of the rides.]

[My sister and Sammie. ♥]

[Haha, I'm just the photographer now.]

[The scenes.]

Honestly, I wasn't in the mood for anything like that at the moment since I was bleeding and the hormonal imbalance was kicking in. However, Bee was so excited to go and I just couldn't ruin it for him. But even though, I actually had some fun even though I felt absolutely cranky most of the time... and dizzy as well.

I lovelovelove Bee.
I'm sorry & thank you.

Por cada segundo que gasto con usted,
yo mantengo a caer más en-amor con usted.

So he said?

2009-02-13T06:39:00.000-08:00

Oh gads. Please... just... no.

Anyways... it was declared a green day today, except on the inside of me, it was a red day. Haha. If you know what I mean. Anyways, Bee and I went to Bel-Air II after classes to drop off Eya at her place.

And then we saw ate Jamie and the others so we hung out there and sold chocolates, ate a lot of food, and chilled till the sun went down.

Then, Bee and I went to his pad so he could use the bathroom and I watched Friends, Scrubs, and then partial of the Crime Scene Investigation show thingy. Haha.

Then, shower. *twitch, twitch*

Past vs Present.

2009-02-12T05:31:00.000-08:00

Why does it matter?

I'm with you.

COMPART class was fun. I made a picture with just a brush and smudge tool. After that class, I went straight home because I didn't have a class after that since PRNTMED was cancelled for the day.

Bee came over and we skateboarded till we reached the park where we hungout for a while. A bunch of kids were in awe with him as he did tricks... and it was so sweet that he taught them how to skate... safely. Haha.

He, then, invited me if I wanted to eat BBQs at Ph5. I said yes, so we went there by car. He actually wanted to eat somewhere else, but I said I wasn't dressed so we took a U-turn and went to Ph5.

We ate BBQs and Kwek-Kweks then talked. We walked around the park, danced underneath the stars, teased, played, Bee scared me shitless, tickled me till I cried (er, a few), and role-played. Haha.

It was a fun night. And omg, look! Tomorrow is Friday the 13th! A day before Valentines day, too! *squeeshu*

Now, I hope my plan for tomorrow night pulls through! If it rains... I'll have to do a raincheck on it. *suds*

Like those days.

2009-02-11T01:02:00.000-08:00

So... it was an off day yesterday... again. Hopefully, not an off week. Please, dear God. Have mercy. Haha.

Bee's car's radiator has a hole so he couldn't use it. I commuted to Paseo, played Left4Dead with the guys while I waited for Bee. He came, we commuted till SM, ate at Pizza Hut, and then walked around. Commuted back towards Paseo, went to BJ Avenue for a quick chill... we danced while this musician played at this restaurant.

And then 9.30, I went home as soon as my dad picked me up, and Bee commuted.

Oh, and I failed my TRIGMAT exam. Good job.

As for today, I woke up after lunch and then watched, Fred Claus and My Bestfriend's Girl. Both movies were absolutely adorable. Haha.

Off day.

2009-02-09T17:23:00.000-08:00

Haha, I skipped class again.

My prof in COMPART told me that I had four consecutive lates and he counts them as absences. So I have two more absences to go before I'm dropped from the course. Well... good job. Haha. I hate him.

Anyways, I went to Paseo with Pappi and Jordiee and hungout for a while with Bee and Roy at his workplace. Then went to Mocha Blends for some chill and foodtrip (thanks to Jordiee for the drink!). Skated, went to National Bookstore, Shakeys, Chowking, back to Mocha Blends then off towards home! Haha.

... what a weird day.

Our story, incomplete.

2009-02-08T18:19:00.000-08:00

Happy happy 18th, Jane~y!

I had fun. I woke up too early, though. 7 AM: because that's what Alexis told me. *sigh* We went on the road around 10 AM and then arrived at SM Las Pinas just in time for the party. Storyland~ the place to be when you're young. Haha.

We were already old, though, but relieving memories were great.

Vya, Ralph, and I went on our separate ways, though, and went around SM after a while.

Then met up with the rest to ice-skate! It was fun, although painful. I fell twice and I think I strained my shoulders and elbows. I also scraped my palm. And my legs were numb. But... still... I learned. Haha.

When we went home, Winston, Jerome, Heinz, Ralph, Nap, and I went to Paseo to look for kwek-kweks... but there were none. So we ate balot (bird fetus) instead and then hungout at Starbucks for a while.

It was a tiring, but fun day. I'm glad I came. :)

S-stutter.

2009-02-07T06:53:00.000-08:00

My classes for today were dismissed early because my professor is a lazy terd.

Anyways, I hungout with Bee today. We chilled at his place and watched TV shows. We had a random photoshoot and just had fun. I missed being lazy and just chilling in front of the telly.

Shit, I love not knowing

where this love is headed.

Yielding.

2009-02-06T06:24:00.000-08:00

So... now, it's me and my Son Goku. Haha.

I love him to bits. My sunshine... literally and figuratively.

Today was fun. *smiles*

Had this shoot with Myco and Vya--trying out my camera for their enjoyment in my expense. And then after Bee's PE class, met up with Jordie for a quick hangout and dinner. They took me home and I went to Ted's place to get my beanie.

But then we decided to jam for a while so we did. I got home before 11 PM.

We're still young--

2009-02-05T06:38:00.000-08:00

--but I can't help but wait.

Scenarios are made when you can't stand to think how reality would end up. You want to manipulate the outcome or how the middle of your story would flow. And I'm in desperate need of shutting my brain up.

I didn't care before, you know? It was so easy to think of myself rather than anyone else. And it would be so easy to forget everything and leave them behind. It would be so freaking easy.

But then you'll have a taste of Heaven.

And you wouldn't want to leave. Because then you'll miss every breath, every warmth, every sweet kisses, every loving words passed through lips, just... everything. It's an entirely different world. And you just don't want to leave.

I don't want to leave.

I wanted to travel the world. I wanted to experience different kinds of culture. I wanted to get odd jobs, but be known for my talent anyways. I wanted to be a famous Hollywood actress someday. I wanted to experience everything.

But then you came along.

And every want, every need, every love changed.

You came along... and you were suddenly a part of it.

I wanted to travel the world with you. I wanted to experience different kinds of culture with you and laugh at how unusual most of them are. I wanted to get odd jobs with you, laugh at how ridiculous they are but how fun they can actually be because we have skills. I wanted to be a famous Hollywood actress with you in tow as my leading man. I wanted to experience everything... with you.

We're free spirits... and I was hoping you'd tag along on my journey.

What if I told you--

I want to be with you--

F O R E V E R?

Words are so easy to say. Hoping, wishing, pleading that someday they would come true. So scenarios come up and you can't help but think of all those things that might happen along the way. It's so hard to be in love.

So fucking hard.

But you can't help it, you know?

You just can't.

Life is so much happier when you're there.

You're everything to me.

So you get scared.

And you think.

Think some more.

Until everything appears through the glass of your eyes. And the sting would be unbearable. All because of those scenarios of which that you materialize in your mind... just because you can't accept how reality would take its course.

Now... all you can do... is wait.

[Movies: How To Lose Friends and Alienate People & The House Bunny. PRNTMED class was a bore, like always. Bee coloured his hair blond. Mc D's for dinner with Bee. Park A what ifs & Park B nostalgia and scenarios. Gallon of salty substance.]

How about another first kiss?

2009-02-04T08:04:00.000-08:00

50 First Dates has taken over my brain.

Anyways, today... I watched 50 First Dates and Wild Child. I went to the market to buy some fish, chips, and veggies for dinner. Then when I got home, I skated for an hour--except, I'm still not good. Dammit.

I watched American Idol with my dad and then now talked to Bee for a while because of his 5-page paper. And he just told me that he coloured his hair blond. Hn. I should be really off to bed now.

But I still love you so--

--and I'll never let you go.

I want to puke.

2009-02-03T05:58:00.000-08:00

This day can be summarized in three words:

Skate. Left4Dead. Tambay.

I didn't even think during my TRIGMAT class, and I have an exam on Friday. Haha. Really. But for today, thanks to: Paul, Jerome, Sean, Ted, Christian, and Albert for a fun tambay and play. My day started off as not so great, but... yeah. Along the way, it was alright.

Not the worst, but I handled it well. Although, my head is still spinning like crazy.

Oh! And I found my wallet! Well, actually... my maid found it for me, but yeah. At least it was found!

Love ninarimasuka?

2009-02-02T05:05:00.000-08:00

I think it's illegal to be this in-love. Haha.

As soon as I woke up, I watched the 5th episode of Lovely Complex to start my day in a happy state. And it always works!

But anyways, PRNTMED was actually fun today. We had a workshop on making brochures and my group and I (namely Bee, Pat C., and Tres) decided that our brochure would be on Government... the gay bar. Haha.

I can't wait to actually see the result of our brochure. It's going to be funny as.

After class, Bee didn't want to leave yet ("I wish I didn't have to go... I want to stay with you some more.")... so he asked me if I wanted to get BBQs. So we did. And while waiting, he taught me how to ride the skateboard... again. Lol. Because I forgot.

He didn't actually want me to skate, really. He kept telling me earlier that, "the best trick that you should do is just balance on the board, bee. And try moving, too."

I kept on pointing to him the really hard tricks, but he kept on repeating those words. And when I asked him, he kept on telling me that he just didn't want me to get hurt. *flutters eyelashes; blushes*

After we ate our BBQs and pig's ears, we skated some more, but he had to go home to Makati...

... although, he did promise me that he'll stay next week Tuesday and Wednesday for me. *smiles widely*

He lent me Sho's baker skateboard for this week, though, so I could practice. Squee!

I can't wait for Thursday again. :)

You're like a train.

2009-02-01T07:50:00.000-08:00

Happy 10th Monthsary, Bee!

I watched Lovely Complex the whole morning and then went to CDBS after lunch. I watched the basketball game for a while, but I got bored so I texted Bee. I hitched a ride with James till PC Butlers and I saw Bruno, Jude, TJ, and a lot of others again.

We were supposed to play Left4Dead, but Bee texted that he was already at Paseo. So I went down, but then I saw Ted, Jibo, and Jossell. Jibo was so silly since he didn't want me to go and he dragged me back to PC Butlers. Lol.

But I didn't want to let Bee wait for me that much so I went ahead and we met each other halfway. Haha. We bought Double Dutch ice cream, yay. Then we went to his place and played the piano for a while.

Though, we did go and follow Sho to the computer shop and played Special Forces. Haha.

Afterwards, we went to mass around 6.30 and hungout with Bea and ate Anna. There were fireworks, music, and food--haha. Fiesta, yes. But we didn't really stay since it wasn't... er. Yes. Haha. We went ahead by 8.30 and ate dinner at his place.

Hungout some more and laughed a lot.

You are my first real happy relationship.
" I want to be your last."

Addy: hello bee! XD
Addy: how was your day? XD
Bumbum: i played the piano today
Bumbum: :)
Bumbum: and then i met with bee
Addy: yes, yes. o: and?
Bumbum: then we went to church
Bumbum: it was weird
Bumbum: cause there were fireballs
Bumbum: in the sky
Bumbum: and then we ate at my place
Bumbum: and went to her place next
Bumbum: then i cried like a pussy
Bumbum: and thats how our monthsary went

Sweat and eat like it.

2009-01-31T07:01:00.000-08:00

Today was very tiring.

From CDBS for the Field Demo to my Saturday class: DEVCOMM. I was late for an hour and a half and I stayed for the class for half an hour. Just half an hour and I was like... say what. Lol. Hey, but that's okay. More time to have fun on the weekend, at least.

After that, my mates and I went to the booths and shit across the college building to the football field for the DLSC Family Day. Haha. We just hung out and took a lot of pictures. After that, went to the cafeteria so most of us could eat.

By 1 PM, we had to go to class... and as expected, I kept on going out of the classroom to hang out outside. Haha. I just hate Saturday classes. But anyways, after that--Bee and I went to the booths and I bought Shawarma. I ate like a pig. Haha.

But I was hungry. So screw it. Lol. We took Cat's sisters home, and then went to 7/11 to buy drinks. Off to his pad so I could watch Korean movies, but there were no subtitles. So while Bee was sleeping, I went outside to his balcony and I stargazed.

I was almost falling asleep when I felt him beside me. Then we cuddled.

We heard his mum calling from downstairs, though, so we went down and greeted them. I played with Sammy most of the night and Bee played with us. Haha. We went camping, then schooling, then Bee kept on getting hit (more like tickled) by his mum cos he was scaring and teasing us. Haha.

It was a fun night and an overall fun day.

Chase me.

2009-01-30T06:25:00.000-08:00

Today... actually passed by like a blur.

We went to CDBS after class--thanks Bee for dropping us off--and ate dinner there. Haha. Then Alexis dropped Patrick and I at the gate of Phase 5 and we went to his dorm to watch American Idol and Pineapple Express. We were like pussies when we watched the movie.

I walked home.

Now... I wonder:

How Bee is doing. Has he already eaten? Is he already home? How the shoot was. Is he done with the report? I hope he's safe. Is he tired?

Damn, I miss him.

I want to be with you.

2009-01-29T07:34:00.000-08:00

So I found out that Mikko Tiongco reads my blog. Yay! And he quoted my last blog. Haha. I didn't actually notice that a lot of people actually does read my blog. Hm, well, for everyone who does... why aren't you guys leaving me messages on my Cbox?

Haha, I'm kidding. But yeah.

Today! It's a Thursday!

Do you know what that means? It means--I get to see my Bumbum! Yes, that's right! Because he has class--and I have class--and we're classmates by the end of the day! So yes. That's right. I'm happy.

After classes, he and I took Vya home at Alabang. So... haha. We kinda had a spout in the car, but it was gentle tampuhan or teasing. Haha. Vya went home around 8, though... she didn't stay for dinner. Boo.

But anyways, Bee and I ate at this Mexican restaurant and we became bloody full.

Afterwards, we went to Ayala Alabang... my village. My most treasured village. *sighs*

Are we going to get married?

I want you so much. I don't want to lose you.

And then had a stopover at Petron so I could pee. We talked, teased, and played around in the car during the trip. Haha. But I'm too good for him. LOL. *gets shot* I'm kidding.

Wondering if you would ever

come around.

BBQs.

2009-01-28T07:34:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was uneventful. Like seriously.

Today, though, I decided to take out my boredom by shooting myself. Haha, no, not literally. More like photoshoots again, because I was freaking bored. But yeah, Reza agreed to model for me next week, though. So maybe we can do some experimental shots soon. :)

I went to Phase 5 to hangout with Patrick. We ate oreos, watched 40 Days and 40 Nights, bought BBQs, and watched remixes on YouTube to pass the time. Haha, it's actually quite a fun day.

But then again, when he was dropping me off to my village gate, we saw a dead cat in the middle of the street... totally flat. And we almost puked and we were running around--out of our wits, terrified.

Eek. Now, how are we going to take that mental image out of our heads? *cries*

As carpenters say, "measure twice, cut once."

2009-01-26T07:00:00.000-08:00

The reason why you love isn't what matters.

Like a friend once told me, "You don't need a reason to love someone. You just do. There're are no buts nor becauses in an I love you."

Romeo save me, then try to tell me how to feel,
This love is difficult, but it's real,
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess,
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.

Adrienne is...

2009-01-25T05:45:00.000-08:00

I went out with my family so my sisters could go shopping for their costumes.

It was tiring. It was stressing. It was so not my mood to shop, but it was okay. I got to walk around and stuff. LOL. Anyways, I missed Bee today! Haha. He was supposed to pick me up, but he was too productive around the house. Haha.

So a new week and no plans yet. Haha, ohwells. :D

Hello again, spontainety.

I want to link up.

2009-01-24T10:18:00.000-08:00

"You look really beautiful tonight."

Alumni Homecoming.

High school. n. Where everyone is out to get you.

I saw a few familiar faces, but I didn't really care. I never liked high school to begin with and it was full of drama, boys, and people who think they're better than everybody else. Yes. But... what I did like about it is that... I met people who made life so much better.

I didn't get to hang with my HS barkada as much, but it's good to mingle with other people for a change.

I didn't expect a lot from the Homecoming, but a bit disappointed with how the program went along. But it was a job well done, anyways, since I think the coordinators didn't get a lot of help. Hm.

After the homecoming, we went to Roy's pad for a while to chill--and yay! Bea was there with us. Haha. Bee wanted to stargaze, though, so we did. His voice is so adorably soothing. It's kind of a crime to have that voice, you know? Haha.

Then afterwards, I went upstairs and hungout with the rest and we jammed. :)

Went home by 2 AM.

"Wouldn't it be nice to

see the sky jet black--

and the stars are out."

You look like a nene.

2009-01-23T08:28:00.000-08:00

We played Frisbee after ASIAWST! It was fun, although tiresome. I shouldn't have, though, because I didn't bring an extra set of clothes and it was absolutely hot around that time. But anyways.

I hung out with Syrus, Jordan, Myco, and Zy while Bee was at class. I made Nicol's tribute for the Homecoming tomorrow, and hopefully... it's good. :')

Afterwards, went to Paseo--haha, but then Bee teased us (more like annoyed me) when he "pretended" to drive off without Zyrille and I. Hmph, so I told Zyrille to hide with me. Haha. And we did.

... well, I don't know if they looked for us, but Myco called Zy... asking where we were. Yep. Mhm.

So anyways, we went to Big 30 and whoa, Joji, Roy, and Nicole S got invited since a few people couldn't come. Lol, it was a fun night. We ate a lot. :D

And after the party, it rained~

We danced under the rain. Haha. Then someone from high school came up to me and said hi. I couldn't even remember who he was, but anyways--he asked for my number. I just remembered who he was because Christian told me.

But, that aside, I danced under the rain with Bee, too. Haha. T'was fun. Got too wet, though, and I was shivering like crazy when we went to Starbucks. They told jokes and I laughed at them. Lol. I couldn't think of anything, because the cold distracted me. Haha.

Damn, but anyways, overall, it was a fun day. :D

Happy 18th birthday, Beb Tina!

Maggots out to get you!

2009-01-22T06:49:00.000-08:00

So before anything else, I would like to remind people that I'm not absolutely crazy.

But I cried a lot today, because of beautiful music. Yes, I admit it... well. No. I don't know. But my eyes just released a lot of fluids.

Anyways, I went to uni for about... 30 minutes late for class and still got to pass the Photoshop activity on time. I went home around lunch time and hung out. I relaxed and... I'm absolutely glad. :)

I also had the time to take a quick nap. Yay.

Then, I got a call from Myco that Bee was looking for me. So yeah. :)

Off to school by 5 PM. Finally saw Bee! Yay. :)

After class, we dropped off Ralph, Nicole S, and Jempots to their respective pads and off to Bee's pad for the both of us. We ate tocino and egg for dinner. Haha. Then, we watched Princess Mononoke.

Haha. I didn't get to understand it as much, though... again.

But yeah. Then suddenly, Bee started to feel pain and shit. So we kinda panicked~

He drank a lot of water, though. I hope? But yeah, he took me home by 10. And... haha. Yes. Winter Sonata does make me cry muchos lotsas. But... in my defense, I'm still learning how to control my shitty emotional problem. Haha!

... he gave Totoro a new friend... I'll call him, "Vlad".

Song of the day:

P.D.A. - John Legend.

When I'm awfully low--

2009-01-21T06:49:00.000-08:00

Today was a very busy day! :D

But I loved it.

Ate Anna picked me up from my place and we headed towards Rustan's to buy some food. Then we went to her place and watched Seven Pounds. Yes, I cried. But I didn't get to watch the ending, though, because Crystal already called me up.

We met up at the club house and the car was there at the front. When I went inside--I sat at the front--I was greeted with the sight of Koreans. A lot of them. Inside one car. With just me... a different nationality. Haha.

But Min Yung was so cute! She was like, ate!

Although... she did call me Babo at one point--which is really mean. But anyway.

Off to AUP, we go! I watched the Korea vs. Indonesia game. It was intense. It even rained! Haha. And the referee was a major prick. We kept on screaming curses at... well, everybody, really.

Indonesians won. O:

And then, around 7, Crystal and I were dropped off at Paseo and we hung out at Starbucks. I got treated out by my tito to a Vanilla frappe! Yay. :)

And we just talked... like... until 10. Haha. But yeah, really... today was absolutely fun. I can't wait for the homecoming on Saturday--

--and I also can't wait to see Bee tomorrow, although it seems as if he isn't excited to see me as well. But yeah... at least I am. *huffs*

Hey, I'm calm.

2009-01-20T17:17:00.000-08:00

I went on another session and got my brain checked--figuratively.

I've had a lot of revelations last night before I went to sleep so I talked to her about it after my class. Well, actually, I went to the SC first with Alexis and watched this really funny game of Chess between the upper batches.

They were hilarious. :D

Well, then there was this Tripod meeting and Jordiee and ate Ginny appeared! And I played this drunk game on Zy's phone! I must beat Joji's record! Haha. Ohwells.

I stayed home around the afternoon and watched chick flicks. I cried a lot but I felt great after. I missed Joji after that. Haha. And then around nighttime, I hung out with Ted. We walked around the village and catched up on what's the haps on college life. :)

SmartBro is shit today so I didn't care much for the internet.

Well, actually. The internet is just another means to pass the time, but if I could--I won't even use it anymore. Le sigh. :)

This is late... but this is my January wallpaper. I still absolutely love you. :)

So your name is?

2009-01-19T05:55:00.000-08:00

I went to get my brain checked today.

No, I'm not crazy. I just had to sort out some issues regarding myself and other shit. Haha. Well, I'm feeling enlightened... almost. Actually, I just want to be myself again. I hate this depressive side of me. I'm tired of it.

Yes, I laugh like crazy. Yes, I am insane when I'm out. But it's as easy as putting on a show.

But anyways, today was uneventful but I felt relaxed. :)

Alexis picked me up from my pad. He felt a little bit down so I asked him what the reason was. He didn't know either. Tsk. He'll probably tell me by the week, though, he said.

And then Bee kept on slapping me during PRNTMED. Tch. Lol. I think my thighs are sore. Haha.

He went home to Makati today so he drove me home early. I won't be able to see him till Thursday. *sighs* I miss him already.

One of it.

2009-01-18T07:20:00.000-08:00

anna duaqui: if it were easy, do you think it'd be worth it?

anna duaqui: it's worth it because you put effort into it.

It's just one of those days, I guess.

It's better to pick out the little pieces even before it becomes into a huge mush of hubabaloos. So yes. Bee and I met up around 6.30 at National Bookstore and he bought two sketch pads to make it a planner. Haha.

He's more into the creative side rather than the organized plain side so I think it suited him quite a bit more. He just needs to learn how to make his creative side... well, organized.

And then afterwards we walked around. Well, we headed towards Baby Cakes and he bought chocolate cake--which I was craving earlier.

After that, we went to the stairs leading to BJ Avenue and chilled there since the park was packed up by people. Haha. We argued about who watched the most chick flicks. Right. So... haha. Why were we fighting earlier again?

But anyways, then it started drizzling and we went for cover at Ichi. He ate cold ramen while I got miso soup. After that, we went to Mercury Drug to buy Sam a thermometer. Well, three, actually.

And then we went to his place and I saw tita and Sam again! Yay! I missed them!

We chilled there and talked and ate popcorn.

And then he took me home by 10.30 PM. :)

Bumbum: tell her, thank you
Bumbum: she understands me very well
Bumbum: and how she's supporting every action i do
Bumbum: to love you :)

Three is too many.

2009-01-17T08:04:00.000-08:00

I had skipped most of my classes today--well, I just had two so what the heck. They were boring, anyways.

Well, I had lunch at Chowking. I should remind myself never to eat there... ever.

Then for my second class, I saw Sho. Haha.

After class, Bee and Sho waited for me near the second gate since I told Bee I would go with them to Tagaytay... but I had prior plans with Cathy that I would go to her party at her place. And then at Ralph's... where I was also "invited".

But yeah. I had uber fun at Cat's. Just the type of hangout I needed at a time like this. Even though I was batshit crazy... it was fun. I ate a lot of corn. I like corn.

And we had a semi-shoot at Melissa's place cos we were bored. And at the park where we played like kids again. And then we watched movies namely: Angus, Thongs, and Perfect Snogging, Bedtime Stories, and The Haunting. I squealed a lot. Just like a pig. :)

But the last movie sucked ass.

Well, anyways. It's 12.31 AM and I just got home 30 minutes before. I'm tired and haven't had much sleep. My eyebags are huge and I just want some rest... but I can't. Why? I don't know.

Love has no restrictions and

it is through mistakes that

sometimes we see the right answer.

Because if you love someone,

you ask them for nothing

and they will come back to you.

Meat Needed.

2009-01-16T13:53:00.000-08:00

I was late again for my TRIGMAT class... but I think Sir Leland is getting used to it. Haha. It was funny how he repeated part of the lecture when I arrived, though. He just asked if I wanted him to repeat and I shrugged because I didn't care, but he did anyways. Lol.

After that, my ASIAWST class... was so frigging boring. Yes, it's Ms. Sche. Yes, it's supposed to be fun and spontaneous, but no. It's not. Wistful thinking again, I guess. Haha.

Then, I went to the SC first as Bee went to his class. I hung out with Ted and Seane. Haha. We jammed with Ted's guitar and I learned how to play, "Wonderwall" on the guitar. Yay. I should do this everyday so I can learn new songs to play.

But anyways, then Bee texted that he was at the caf. So I went down and hung out with him, Jordan, Nicole S, and Jempots. But then I wanted my water so I got it at the 4th floor, got Ted's guitar, and played as I hung out with Jordiee at the caf.

But we got bored at the caf so we went to the 4th floor and hung out there instead.

And then I played WWE on the PSP! MRAWR! Yessss. Unadulterated VIOLENCE. *evil laughter* Lol. I'm kidding.

But anyways, after Bee's class, he, Jordie, and I went to Starbucks at Paseo. I didn't know they had a meeting. Hm. But anyways, I stayed there and listened to my iPod while their meeting was on-going.

James, Roy, and Paul were there, too. Haha.

After their meeting, we went to Shakeys and ate dinner since they were talking for... three hours straight. Lol!

But anyways, yes. :)

... and now, it's 6.21 AM and I still haven't had any decent sleep. Fuck you, brain.

Catch a falling star.

2009-01-15T08:44:00.000-08:00

I played Chess with Alexis today at the SC with Seane, Aldrin, and Cedric during the break. Well, actually, we didn't have any COMPART class, because we didn't have a classroom to go to. Haha. Ohwells.

And then afterwards, I went to PRNTMED. It was boring... so I hung out outside of the classroom with people. Haha. After that, Bee and I went to Phase 5 to eat BBQs and Kwek-Kweks.

I saw my first shooting star! And I made a wish. :)

Catch a falling star and

put it in your pocket...

Never let it fade away.

A Pair of Adjacent.

2009-01-14T06:45:00.000-08:00

So yesterday, since I didn't get to blog... I went to Alabang with Bee after class. I had lunch first with Alexis and Chinkee, but after that, went on our merry way. So Fitness First... after that, I walked towards ATC.

I texted Orry if he was free and told him to ask more people for a hangout. But he said they were all in BF Homes, but he went to ATC and picked me up so we could go to Paranaque and check out the scenes.

I met a lot of new people (*cough* guys *cough*) and they all looked like they were part of a JPop group. Haha. Yes. But anyways. We got hungry so we went to Gourmet's and I ate Shawarma. Yay.

Then back to Timezone. But the people went to the computer shop already so we went there, too. Left 4 Dead! Yay! But anyways, then Gabriel texted me if I was still at Alabang and if we could meet up.

So I, once again, commuted and walked. The whole day was really tiring... like really. But anyways, Gabriel said he'd meet up with me in a while so I went to my house then afterwards, Kyle's pad. But he wasn't there, neither was Julien, so I hung out with Nico. We watched HBO.

But then, Kyle's mum, her brother, the driver, and lolo came and we talked about my life. Haha.

After that, Joji texted around 6, looking for me... but then, yeah. I had to walk back to ATC even though my feet were already killing me. But it was okay, I saw Paola along the way. We chatted and shit. Haha.

Lucky her. She has my life before... all alone in the house.

Sigh.

Oh, how I miss that life.

So anyways, after that, Bee and I met up--he followed me around not even nudging me or anything... the creep. But anyways. Haha. I saw some people from AAV and yeah. Whatever.

Then we went to Be Connected to play "Special Forces". After our time, went on the road, but had a stop over at the gasoline station. Yes.

Afterwards, home.

But as for today, since I didn't have class, I went to school just to hangout. And I did.

Then Paseo. Starbucks. BJ Avenue. Walked around. Guilly's. Walked around. BJ Avenue. Then afterwards, Ichi for dinner. It's a chilly night. Really.

Erased.

2009-01-12T06:18:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday to Potchee (Ily)!

It just sucks that the pictures we took got deleted.

Ali borrowed my camera for an hour and when he gave it back... the card got a virus and couldn't open any files. So I had to format it. All those pictures... those pictures. *cries*

I wish my hands were bigger.

The lines on my palm aren't long enough

for me to love you as much as I want to.

Anyways, I went on a spontaneous date with Bee tonight. It's actually been a while. It was fun. We ate at this Japanese restaurant... I had ramen while he had sushi and this Japanese pancake. Haha. It was actually good.

But the fish scales were still alive and moving! Freaky. Haha.

Then we went to BJ Avenue and hung out there. It was so freaking cold! He gave me his jacket and we danced like lunatics while the music in the background played. Haha.

It was cute. :)

Afterwards, we drove towards 7/11 and he treated me out to ice cream! Yay!

We talked about the Japanese cartoons / animes we watched during our childhood. Haha. We actually had a debate and everything about them. I can't believe he didn't know Kiki the witch who baked bread! Haha.

He drove me home by 9 PM. :)

I missed you.

And the warmth.

Poetry.

2009-01-11T06:38:00.000-08:00

A vision within the mind created by words flowing through the lips or through one's fingertips.

Every word, every breath, every sigh, and every sway of the wrist gives meanings to the way the feeling grows inside the body and how it echoes through the ambiance amidst the crowd's silence.

Speak and be heard. Write and we'll learn. Keep still and reach out, true facts. Deeper than the skin and more wet than the mouth.

Visit my poetry site:

HERE please.

Admit it.

2009-01-10T18:27:00.000-08:00

Of course... you'd rather not think about me, then. Haha.

"Hating how jealous you are--

but loving me how much you

want me all to yourself type love."

I bled today.

But yeah, I didn't notice until after lunch.

Around lunch time, Alexis, Sharelle, and I went to Cinema Bar and watched The Wedding Singer. It was so sweet. *teary-eyed*

Then, when we got back to class, I went to the restroom and I bled. Yes, that's right. It wasn't the best feeling so I went to class again and asked around. No one had a bloody napkin. So I was doomed, basically. But when Bee came, he helped me look.

Thank God someone had an extra one.

So then, yeah...

Hello there, young man.

I watched you skim down.

And I guess I didn't matter.

Until I saw you run towards me.

Saying, "I forgot something".

So anyway, Jerome, Heinz, Cathy, Nicole S, Jempots, and I went to Heinz' pad and ate ice cream, cookies, and watched a DVD: Harold and Kumar. Haha. It was bloody hilarious.

After that, we dropped Jempots at Paseo, Nicole Sandovie and Cathy at the village near Rustan's. But Jerome, Heinz, and I stayed till the sun went down and the moon that was so bright and full appeared.

We left the lover's talk so Jerome and I went to the court and watched the player's get on their sports brawl. We talked about love, life, school, and learning in general. We talked about how we missed our other half--

--oh, how I missed my Bumbum.

Anyways, then we went back to Heinz' pad and got their shit for basketball and also, got Kiel so he could come with us. Haha. We were off to Bel-Air and we ate dinner at Mc D's. After that, went to Bel-Air 3 and drove around looking for Cathy.

We saw her walking in the main road with someone and we gave them a ride to Martha's pad. Haha. We hung out there for quite a long time. Martha's brother, of which the name I don't know how to spell, was absolutely wild.

Haha, then we walked around the village and then went home by midnight.

It was an absolutely tiring day. But relaxing. In a way.

I want a love like--

2009-01-09T06:17:00.000-08:00

Me thinking of you--

--thinking of me--

--thinking of you--

... Type of love.

Hung out with my favorite mates. <3

After classes, Bee and I went to PC Butlers to play Left 4 Dead. Oh, my gosh. I loved it. Haha. My heart rate beat faster than normal and I kept screaming. Haha. It was fun. Haha. I might play it more someday. 8D

Then, we went to school because Bee needed the prof to sign his Adding/Dropping form--although I think he needs to give it to Ms. Jenny, really.

He took me home. :)

But he stayed. And we chilled...

At his car, at the back of his car, at my pad, at the park, then back to his car.

Be happy.

But please,

don't forget:

I'm here.

Yeah, jolly. Like I always am.

2009-01-08T05:18:00.000-08:00

First day of classes for the third term of the my second year in Uni.

I have year left before I say goodbye to my youth... and most probably, the Philippines as well. I've always said that I would work in this country first before anything else, but I can't seem to find a reason to stay anymore.

Over and done with... that's what I'm thinking.

I might regret wishing for the days to come by quickly when I finish Uni in time, but right now... I'm still stupid and I keep wishing for the silliest stuffs. And although, I'm sure most of them won't happen...

... at least I'm living for something.

[No COMPART, walked around, met new friend, watched Silent Hill @ home.]

No, Bee, I'm not lesbian.

You know--

2009-01-07T05:28:00.000-08:00

You're unfair.

How could you make me miss you so much?

How could you make me look for you in the middle of the night when I wake up from a dream or a nightmare?

How dare you leave me?

You're so unfair...

It's so unfair...

That you'll let me feel this way.

Hello, stranger. Good to see you again.

2009-01-06T07:13:00.000-08:00

I had a spontaneous photoshoot today with Nicole Sandoval. Haha.

We went around the campus looking for places to shoot at. It was actually fun and a good way to consume time since I'm also trying to build up my portfolio--it's gonna help loads for practice. But anyways--

I paid for my tuition fee.

And the bloody school's system made me and Sandovie go up and down the bloody building trying to enlist her because the bloody registrar's office (except for the small woman at the front desk) were so bloody lazy. I hate 'em all.

But after that shinnanigan, Bee picked us up and we dropped off Sandovie at Rustan's. HE GAVE ME A FREAKING CANON BAG FOR MY SLR. Mrawr. Did I mention how sweet my boyfriend is? Really. He is.

Then Bee and I were off to Festival to chill. Haha. Wow. After two weeks, I finally saw him again. *sighs* I missed him. So we ate at Sbarro--he ate salad while I ate this huge ass pizza pie. Haha. So freaking full, really. Oh! And we saw Rogie! Haha.

Afterwards, we went around and we saw the KTV bar at the top floor. We were supposed to Karaoke, but he thought it would be better if it was in another time. So we left. Haha.

Off to Powerbooks afterwards and he bought this Japanese dictionary. Then he got dizzy (while, I was actually dizzy since I woke up), so we looked for a place we can hang out and relax. We found ourselves going to Pixie Forest and going to the "Fun House".

Yes, I embarrassed myself there.

I didn't even last a minute when the swing started to move.

Honestly, I'm scared of swings. Terrified. But most of all, I'm scared of rollercoasters.

Yes, I'm a pussy. I admit it.

But anyways, after that, we went around and we saw this... *cough* sex shop and looked around. Haha. It was... interesting. A lot of lingerie, sex toys, and crazy shit that you can use while having sex. Haha. Yes.

Indeed, interesting.

Then Bee started to talk to the lady. And I kept looking back but not really trying to listen. So when we went out of the shop, Bee gave me a small box. Haha. I had an idea. Well, maybe two. But yes, I was innocent in the brain like that. *cough*

So we went home.

... OH WAIT. Haha, before that, we stayed at Starbucks in the second gasoline station before going to our back trip to Laguna.

Then, when we were nearing the McDo junction, he asked me, "Do you wanna chill for a while?"

And we had a detour to his place. Haha. It was funny as. But yeah, he's adorable that way. :p

I PLAYED THE PIAAANO. :D

And anywhoo, we played and wrestled. And I lost. :p

Oh, and btw, LOL @ BEE FOR GETTING A DEFECTIVE (& actually expired) BOX OF THICKWRAP.

I love you that way. :D

He took me home by 10, but not before going to 7/11 and getting us some drinks. Thank you so much Bee... for everything. :)

Ahah! Circles.

2009-01-05T07:46:00.000-08:00

So today--

--I walked to Phase 5 under the heat with a slight fever. And I loved it. Want to know why? Because that was the first damn exercise I got for the whole freaking Holidays. Haha. I'm gaining fat. My face, from an oval became a circle. Where did my chin go? I have no idea. Haha.

My stomach keeps demanding that I feed it... constantly. Seriously, what the hell? Haha.

The Holidays are over, body. Get yourself back together and get back to reality!

So I felt like Alice when she had first arrived in Wonderland with the most curious face. Curiouser and curiouser. I say, the outside world felt a bit warmer than I could've remembered. Or was I inside the confines of my abode for far too long to notice the sudden change of weather?

But anyways--I went to Tita Belen's chillplace and hung out there with my friends. We watched a lot of movies namely, "Shrek 4", "Spy---something", "Mr & Mrs. Smith", and "The Disaster Movie".

Laughtrip all the way.

We got to eat tita's cooking again. We were fed (dammit!) carbonara, donuts, cake, little hotdogs in breading, and sweets from Carlito and Alexis. Yes, we were fed. Like a lot. Haha.

We miss Nicol. :')

I love you, Bumbum--

and I will never get tired of saying it.

Your kisses;

the sweetest high.

Your hugs;

the warmest sigh.

Wishing this night's dream will comply.

I want to dream of you tonight.

Take me to a place--

2009-01-04T20:07:00.000-08:00

--called home. :)

Lovestoned.

2009-01-03T06:24:00.000-08:00

Those flashing lights come from everywhere
The way they hit her I just stop and stare
She's got me love stoned
Man I swear she's bad and she knows
I think that she knows.

Got my heart in a headlock.

2009-01-02T21:45:00.000-08:00

I want this year to be an awesome '09, so dagnabbit if I'm going to be emo. So I'm going to be the playful type of trying-to-be optimist. That's right--but my emo comes from reading such dramatic and anti-climatic fictions that I've been so amused to lately.

If I'm not finishing Veronika Decides to Die, I'm either trying to fill my head with Harry Potter fluff or swooning over the what-could-be's of Jack Sparrow and Elizabeth Swan's affair on PoTC. I haven't read shizz in a while so I'm shocked to see that all of my stories haven't been updated in more than a year.

I could say that I should put what I want to do in my resolution, however--I never really gave a damn about starting anew in New Years. It's just the same shit... different bucket type of thing, anyway.

So, hello to the new year, not again to the same old thoughts and addendums.

But the good news is--by June, my bestfriend from NZ, Ben, and my cousin, Angelo will be visiting me! Summer--totally, and absolutely fun I hope--since Kaskade will be here. OMG. Yay. Although, Ali did say that he'd rather I go to Bahrain with him to party with Tiesto since he might be present for Project1.

I should enjoy whatever comes forth and no regrets.

So that's what I'm going to implement in this freaking new year... "Enjoy, no regrets."

Now, I gotta get the gigs I want in Photography, put up a business, stop whining, and get on with my own life. I'm strong-willed. I have my own vision. And I will damn well get what I want this year.

"Well... did you miss me?"

"Did you?"

"Always."

Hello year.

2009-01-01T21:05:00.000-08:00

The first day of the new year.

... just smile.

Smile.

2008-12-31T22:03:00.000-08:00

C O U N T D O W N

2009 and 9th Monthsary.

... so smile.

One more time!

2008-12-30T19:08:00.000-08:00

HIGH SCHOOL REUNION!

Woot. :)

So my friends and I met up at Starbucks: Paseo. First, it was Crie-Crie and I. She gave me one of her marshmallow treat thingy-ma-jig from her neighbour because she didn't want them. Haha. But it was actually quite good, although a bit messy to eat.

Then followed by Kim and Kayla.

Afterwards, Mae, Bruce, and Pia. We then talked, took a lot of pictures, and suddenly we got hungry. So we were off to Shakeys! IJ then came and we all ate our fill of food. Haha. Finally.

We went to BJ Avenue after eating to chill. But the chilling part didn't actually happen since we were all freaking camwhores and decided to take more freaking pictures. Haha. But it was hilarious, fun, and I missed it.

I missed everything.

Consequently, we went back to Starbucks and finally chilled and talked some more. Although, after the clock striked five, people started leaving, but not before some extra photo-taking session.

The ones left were Mae, Kayla, IJ, Bruce, and myself. We went to 7/11, then and hung-out before my dad got there. So after a few minutes, he did, and Mae and I had to go. We said our goodbyes and off we went to my pad.

We ate dinner there--because papa insisted since he was actually a really good cook--and we took pictures of the moon. But the moon hid behind some stupid grey clouds so we didn't get to get any good shots. Darn it. Haha.

After dinner, we went to her pad and ate buko pandan, blueberry cake, ube, and sweet corn Graham cake! Haha. Sweet tooth, out, yes? Haha. Then we walked around her village and I saw my classmate from before (who was also her cousin) Tom! Haha.

Mae wanted to make me ride the motorbike, but seeing I'm not exactly sure if we'll be safe or not--I was telling her that I didn't want to die like that. Haha. But she insisted so she tried to turn the engine on, but it consistently dies on her. Haha.

It was a sign that I shall live. 8D

But anyways--we went around some more, and I saw this guy who stalked me from before... Jaypee. Haha. He kept on staring at us. Creepy, tall kid. Haha. But anyways--then we went back inside her pad to watch some movies.

I went home around 10 PM.

When I got home, after an hour or so, I called Bee up... apparently, he was having this... er. Fireworks on his face. Haha! Yes. It was so scary hearing him yell, "ITAI" on the phone. I was screaming as well.

Then he gave the phone to Sam and we talked. Haha. I didn't quite hear her, though, because her mouth was probably too close to the mouthpiece. But it was so cute hearing her say that her brother's face looked funny and the blood on his nose looked like boogers. Haha.

My UNYT suddenly ended, though, so we didn't get to finish the conversation that much. I ended up texting him instead--but the unlimited calls and texts of Globe was suspended until the morning of the 1st day of the New Year so I was like...

Oh crap.

In our monthsary, I wouldn't be able to talk to him as much as I want to. *sighs*

And then, I kinda forgot that it was our monthsary on the 1st so he was making tampo to me. Haha. I kept saying sorry, and he told me I forgot about our monthsary twice already. I feel so ashamed. Grr.

So yeah, he called me and after that call ended, we texted again. Then I decided it wasn't enough, so I called him. Haha. After that call ended... I fell asleep.

Then while I was off to dreamland, which was around 2 or 3 AM, he still kept texting me. Haha. It was cute that he keeps on sending me "I love you." text messages. :)

"Hay naku, mummy!

If nag-break kayo niyan--

mapapatay siguro kita!"

"MUMMY! Ang sweet naman!

Hay naku! Tapos lagi mong inaaway!

Ang bad mo talaga!"

"... kinikilabutan ako sa kilig."

- Mae Rosqueta.

It's our 9th monthsary tomorrow midnight!

Lol, and here I thought it was our 10th.

Military shirt courtesy of Bee!
I miss you, Bumbum! <3

Crazy right now.

2008-12-29T07:23:00.000-08:00

Lunch at Kanin Club with the Bernal / Macatangay clan. Haha.

So yeah. We were so freaking noisy in the restaurant. People keep on staring at us. Haha. Good times... good times. :]

After that, just walked around and I went to National Bookstore to ogle at Smoke and Mirrors but I was dead-broke. So nevermind. Then off back home where we did karaoke and shit. Haha. But anyways--my cousin and tita were off to Taguig again till the New Year's so we stayed till night time at the Vintage House for some last minute picture-taking.

Then we tried to play GTA: San Andreas, but the damn CD won't work. Haha. So Around 8 PM, I went home with my sister, Antoinette, and we noticed the stars again... and it was so pretty! It's like the sky opened up fully and the stars went out to play! And... it was just so pretty.

I'm speechless about it. So I took pictures. 8D

So I'm planning to try and give myself a break from thinking... but it's kinda hard considering--I don't know. Haha. I abhor emotions in a situation like this. So I will try until the vacation ends that... I won't feel anything.

BUT YAY. These are just words anyway, right? You don't have to believe everything I write. You know why? Because I'm a fiction writer... and I learned to lie.