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You're so cute when you're silly.

And I think I've fallen more in love with you. :)

[Uni. SM. Festival [Eagle Eye & Foodtrip]. Ate Francine's bday.

Freckles. Webcam. Looking adorable. Waiting for 6th mothsary!]

Labels: bee, bumbum bee um-ni cobra, love, sexy times

Mind over matter.

Space.

Now who would have thought about that little word in such a short time? I, for one, would like to work things out in the quickest possible way. Time is gold. And I don't want to waste another second of it without you.

I see trees of green... red roses, too.

I watch them bloom. For me and you.

I think to myself. What a wonderful world! And yet I see so many knooks and crannies that hide too many shadows. I'm scared to check them out, but I do anyways. Sometimes nothing's there, and yet... most of the time, I see cracks, dust, and webs that need to be cleaned up.

Have you ever thought of just forgetting things because it would be easier on your behalf? It's a bad habit... to stay as cold as ice and just not care. But when I come back to reality, the tears won't stop coming and you'll wish that you were nonchalant once again.

Why do you keep your happiness bottled up?

Why do I keep thinking? And why do I let you suffer for my wrong-doings? Can't I just keep it to myself and not act selfish? He has his own problems, why don't you help him with that instead, huh?

Nobody fights for someone who cannot stay.

So when you started to walk away, I wanted to tell you so badly to stay. Please, don't go away. Don't leave me. I need you. And all I could do was pull you in my arms. Hug you. And murmur incoherent things I couldn't even remember.

You didn't deserve to be treated like that. You deserved so much better. And I knew I wasn't giving you what you deserved. I know someone else would've done a better job. But you know what? I'm selfish. And I need you. I love you. And I can't let you go. I just hope you don't mind.

Because nothing seemed right... with a world filled with smiles.

Because all that seemed right... is for you to make another song.

And when those tears fall, you'll know. I haven't been doing well, have I?

I haven't been doing well at all and I feel so guilty.

Because you deserve to be treated so much better.

But I can do better.
I promise I will.

"I love you so much. I don't want to lose you."

Labels: bee, bumbum bee um-ni cobra

Runny nose and running mind.

I hate having colds. It's been a while since I experienced this. Fnck.

Anyways, went on a foodtrip with my family (plus my tita) tonight after mass (Cat surprised me from behind).

My dad and her were talking about how she got angry with her husband so she flew to Cebu for a couple of days to cool off. Wow. I wish I had the money for that. Haha. But anyways, it was fun. I got to eat pizza, spaghetti, taters, ice cream, and the shit while being sick! So now...

... I don't know if I feel better or not, because I just finished a roll of tissue paper. Haha.

I'm texting with a lot of people tonight... and Bee isn't one of them. *sighs*

Wala lang. I just miss him, 'tis all.

Tomorrow, Isie's despedida! I'm thinking of going, but hopefully... my flu doesn't get in the way. *sighs*

Labels: flu, hangout

Note to self, Bibiboo--

Because everybody else is doing the same... I'll do the opposite.

He's the sweetest guy you will ever meet. He'll tell you otherwise, but you'll know by the way he holds your hand... the way he will always try and protect you from harm--that he cares. His smile will brighten up anyone's day, especially his laugh. It's the cutest thing you'll ever hear. He loves joking around so you'll never be bored with him.

And don't you just love it when your man wraps his arms around your waist and pulls you closer when you feel like you're alone? He does that a lot. He knows when you really need him, he'll be there. And he'll make everything better. And you'll know that he's the one that'll make you happy--because you need him that much.

He loves pigging out so pig out with him. He will always say, "Bee, diet tayo!" but you'll never follow that plan because you'll find a restaurant that you will always want to try out. He craves for Fish o Fillet a lot (from Mc D's) because they're damn good.

He makes everyday seem like an adventure with his kind of lifestyle. Skateboarding will just take you to heights you've never been before because of the rush that hey, you can actually balance on a wobbly board with wheels! He'd rather you not skate, though, because: "I don't want my happiness to get hurt."

He's the type of guy that loves the simple things in life. The small, sweet gestures that you'll give him would be the most memorable thing that will be imprinted in his mind. Just because: "you poured water in my glass, I think it was sweet, and I liked you right then and there." (show him that you care).

He's a strong man with contained emotions. Look at his eyes and you'll see if he's really alright or not. You'll just feel it. He's a strong man with contained emotions... but he has his days of weakness. Give him a really tight hug--cuddle with him--and hum to him your song. Make him feel better.

Everyday, you'll learn a lot from him. He would say that he was "some dumb shit", but most moments, you just can't help but notice that everything that he says... is wise and you'll learn a lot from. He's a very deep person and emotions run deep within him--he won't show or say it out loud, though.

He is so talented. You'll be in awe when he plays songs on his guitar. He's also good at picking up songs that he barely even knows. But just for you, he'll try to know the chords and find out about the song and play it for you. He loves composing as well... so when he composes for you, you should feel special. Because that means he's inspired. :)

He's really good at photoshopping, too! You'll be left in awe with the works he could do! And especially when he edits/makes videos! He's absolutely good at those. His passion would be multimedia, so when he makes videos for you--you'll absolutely melt.

He's very self-conscious of his figure (as well as his appearance) so when he complains, complain with him and forget all about it afterwards. Laugh it off--because no one's perfect. And he's absolutely handsome anyways. It doesn't matter as much. In your eyes, he'll be the most beautiful man you'll lay your eyes on.

He absolutely loves his PSP (or any cool gadgets, for that matter). But even though, you should understand he's a man. And men are easily distracted by shiny, technological things--like women with jewelries (even though in most cases, it's not true). He'll never put his gadgets above you, though, because--"First of everything--I Love My Bibiboo!"

He wants you to notice him. Don't act like a stuck-up jerk just because you want him to miss you. Smile at him, hug him, make him know that he's there and that you notice him. He would want to know that you still want him and need him.

A lot of girls might flock over to him--and it will probably make you jealous--but always remember. He's with you. He'll always assure you that his heart is for you. "Because he gave his all to you: physically and emotionally--and you're connected that way." So don't worry. He'll always be your Bumbum.

When you feel like walking under the moonlit sky and just spend the night stargazing, he'll always be game (even if it's raining or whatnot) because he loves spending time with you. You won't even notice the time pass because you'll be too preoccupied with talking and just laughing--sharing memories and as well as experiences.

And when he says he loves you... he means it. And you can't just help, but say... I love you too. :)

So note to self, Bibiboo.

You're one lucky girl.

Labels: bee, bumbum bee um-ni cobra, love

Fncked up.

My BASPHOTO class sucked as. I failed the quiz majorly.

After that, stayed at the caf for a few, then went to Bee's place. Watched Love Actually then Roy came over. Bee fell asleep, Roy left for a few, then Bee woke up and told me about his dream.

Went to Rockwell with Bee and the Gonzalez family afterwards when Roy picked us up around 5:30 PM. The way to Makati was a bit shaky, and I felt really sick afterwards. But yeah.

We went around, grocery shopping with Roy's family, walked to "Gorilla" or something (I dunno, but Bee and I didn't stay) to drop off Roy, then we went back to Rockwell for dinner. Ate Jamaican patties and Oliver's sandwiches (w/c was freaking huge but expensive). Then to Fully Booked.

Went home around 1 AM.

Sorry Roy for the screw up with the text. I didn't mean to. *suds*

And to Bee... I love you. I know I've been acting... shallow lately. I'm sorry. Really, truly sorry.

Labels: bee, hangout, makati, sexy times, soulja crew

Animo Pizza!

30 inches pizza!

Fnck damn. We were so full we couldn't even move properly. ~~And Myco was harrassed all night~~. :DD

We took lots of pictures (in Jordiee's cam) ~~so I'll have to wait till he posts them~~ he posted them! *beams*

Bee and I cost a scene for at least a couple of minutes in Big 30, because we think we "cheated" on each other. LOL.

My password is, iloveyouroy! - Bumbum to Roii

Yeah? Well, sorry, but Cathy was cheating on you with me! -
Bibiboo to Roii

It was so funny, though. :D

And my favorite couple of the night was Bumbum and Roii. They're so adorable. Lol.

Mental note:

I think I have the flu. ):

Labels: bee, hangout, soulja crew

Holiday Spree

Toooooday.

Two holidays within four hours. Fireworks and white Christmas~ X3

Mc D's with Pappi, Uni, Bee's pad, then Mc D's for some snack before going home~

Lovin' it. :)

Tomorrow.

Quiz for Physics and report for INTROSO.

Fnck, I won't be able to join football.

Alright, I can say what you want me to.

Alright, I can do all the things you do.

Alright, I'll make it all up for you.

I'm still in love with you. :)

Labels: bee, hangout, sexy times

If you know.

Why does paranoia always have to be present in relationships?

This morning made me stress about reality so much. *sighs*

It was Nicol's mass today at the Chapel. And I seriously still can't get over my emotions. And then... I feel empty again. Please dear Lord, help me get over this.

Bee and I went to Tokyo Tokyo in the gas station near Mamplasan today for lunch around 2 PM. I missed Bee even though we see each other a lot... I don't know. But... I just miss him so freaking much.

I miss his company. And I miss the comfortability. I miss his warmth, his tight hugs, and his loving kisses. *sighs*

I want a date.

Class today (PEONE) was actually fun.

I found out I was physically fit--which is good.

A lot of innuendos and puns were exchanged.

I love my happy noodle,

if you know what I mean.

Labels: bageegee, bee, nicol noble

Empty Tears

Bea: is confuzzled.:D but smiles silly anyway.
Bea: und i blame nicole.
ADi: HAHAHA. WHYY? XD
Bea: bikass. its you i got it from.
Bea: ...Being able to smile at everything. :)
ADi: ... aww. It's hard, though... right? Haha.
ADi: Just smiling at everything and fooling everyone that
you're okay when you're not.

Because every smile seems so empty now. :)

Don't you sometimes wish that you were numb? I used to wish for that. I willed the hurt away, I wanted it to go away... but now, I just want to feel. Because when I cry... I just feel the tear slide down my cheeks and the pain in my chest constrict, but the emotion fades.

So. Easily.

During Physics earlier, I cried. And I was confused why I was crying. Because I felt the pang of hurt--as quickly as it came--it was gone. I wanted to look at Joji. I wanted to smile at him and be able to feel that I was alright.

But I couldn't.

Because I wasn't. But I didn't feel it. I knew it.

... why did I change?

He knew me as the happy-go-lucky girl. The one who smiles at everything. The one who always wanted to have fun--because it made her feel that she was still alive and that everybody else wanted her to feel the same.

Nowadays, when I laugh, it feels so shallow. What happened?

Hey, unfateful. I'll teach you how to be stronger.

This day feels like a whisper. I don't mind it at all.

And so, I hung out with Alexis, Myco, and Reza tonight at Phase 5 and ate isaw and BBQ.

Because when I gave you my heart,

you wrote on it and gave it back.

I replied with small letters,

and I suddenly felt my heart ache
(and you didn't notice it).

You came down and looked at me,

I looked back and smiled

(because it's the only thing I can do).

And when we made up,

and I gave you a hug--

you kissed my heart.

And you put it back.

You kept it and it's beat resumed its track.

Labels: empty, hangout

He wishes he was sweeter.

"If only I was sweeter than him."

Really, you don't have to try so hard. Because the sweetness you have is spontaneous, and I love to be surprised. :)

So it was Hydee's debut tonight!

It was fun and the place is absolutely gorgeous (near Batangas). After tonight, I feel like really getting on with clubbing. I got Bee's permission, anyways. :P

Funny fact: The bartender tonight told me that I was drinking "Black Russian" (it tasted like Bailey's). Then I pointed out to a drink again and no, it wasn't Black Russian... it was already Vodka Mudslide. Haha. *shot*

... no, I'm not drunk, yet. I just feel really hyper. :)

Haha, Bee.

If you want sexy times,

you gotta be sly about it. ;)

Labels: bee, debut

Coffee

Today is coffee day.

Don't you just love coffee?

So anyway. I hung out with a lot of people today. And it was fun even though the weather is a bit so-so. I played Counter-Strike (while Sho is here) with the Soulja Crew tonight. It seems like this whole week is all about Counter-Strike. Haha.

Bee and Roy took me home early, though (since seemingly Bee's car has issues) and we talked about a lot of stuff. Roy got introduced to my dad and my sister. Bee owes me skateboarding lessons. And now I'm doing my homeworks, projects, and reports.

And get this, it's just the start of the second week of the new term and I'm already stressed. :)

There are a lot of memorable stuff that happened today.

Myco got wet during class (since Nicole poured too much water on him).

We sang our How To Not Be Late song at class (and we got a few chuckles, thank God).

Bee presented his video during class (haha, retarded as it may be).

Roy bought a dozen burgers (LOL. Thanks Roy!).

I had to broadcast to the whole computer shop that I had to pee (and I was the only girl there).

And the sunset was pretty.

Bee and I had this interesting conversation about sunrise and sunsets.

Sunrise.

It dictates that another day has come.

And you're alive. So be thankful.

Sunsets.

The saddest part of the day.

Because you'll say goodbye to another day.

And wake up to a different sequence.

My head hurts.
And tomorrow, I want a pedi.
Hydee's debut... hm.

What to wear?

Labels: bee, hangout, soulja crew

"Someone special"

Tonight, the giddiness exceeds expectation.

Hence, I shall warn you all on the incoherence of my blog post starting...

... now...

akjsgdhasd.

Seriously, though. Aren't I so lucky that I have the most perfect boyfriend for me?

I mean, who cares about Jude Law (although he still makes me want to go oh fuck every now and then)? And who cares about Johnny Depp (oh my god! Johnny Depp! *swoons*) when I have my own Joji Yonzon Kurosawa here by my side... with me.

Jealousy? Pfft. I don't think I won't have to do anything anymore. I mean, alright. I do sometimes feel the green emotion (in the most unnecessary times, too) but I trust my Bumbum. And I love him so much.

And I know by the end of the day, he'll be with me. :)

I felt the pain as you told your story.
It's so long ago, but it felt so raw.

That emotion of your first rejection.

If she can only see you now, Bee.

She'd wish she would've accepted that letter.

She would've wished she treated you better.

Well, tough luck for her (and for those other women)--

--because I have you. And I'm so freakin' happy that I do. :)

This heart.

I'll take care of it.

Treasure it.

Because it's the sweetest thing. Ever.

"I had it for... thirteen years. And I want you to have it."

"I want to give it to someone special."

We watched "Graveyard of the Fireflies".

And I cried so hard. It was an awesome movie.

*hearts*

It's been a while since you stayed.

I missed those times where we were in your car.

Just chilling and talking.

Because when we're inside, I feel like the whole world just stops.

And time freezes because inside, all we can hear and feel are ourselves.

All those mistakes. All those faults.

Bee, it's okay.

Because all those things could be made up...

--with hot, make-up ~~sex~~ afterwards. ;)

*just trying to make you smile* :D

Labels: bee, giddy, love

"Life as I Know It"

More food?
More food?

So today was especially tiring.

Bee didn't feel well, but he insisted that he was alright. That it was just for today. I hope so, too.

"I just want to spend time with you... even for today."

We played Counter-Strike like old school, and while playing... I noticed we don't blink when we're too focused with the game. Oh! And I fell from my seat! Haha, it was fun. :D

Since Bee was dizzy to drive, Roy drove and Myco stayed beside him while Bee, Sho, Ralph, and I stayed at the back. We went to 7/11 to buy some food and they took me home afterwards.

I'm glad he finally found someone that would make him happy. I've always hoped that someday, he would find someone new that he can move on to and where he would be accepted for how he is. He's a great guy, just... I guess. Not my cup of tea.

To my friend who hopefully fell in love with him, you guys take care and I hope you both have a healthy relationship. :)

To my Bee, everything is well. And every single day makes me happier because I know you're part of life... and life as I know it... is better when you came along. :)

Labels: bee, hangout, soulja crew

Caught in Between

Today was fun and tiring. Class wouldn't have been better if Bee wasn't around. We drew scribbles on our palms and everything. Haha. Even though the drawings were mostly X-rated. *snorts*

After class, we went to Bel-Air for isaw and other shizz. Hung out at his pad with Sho and ate dinner there, then Roy came over. We went to 7/11 afterwards and Roy treated us out!

Moral story of the day?

I don't know, but whatever the hell I'm feeling right now when it comes to the green emotion, I do hope it passes. You've been assured plenty of times before so... why doubt?

If your ex wants to hook up with your friend, why not? Don't be a hypocrite. You did it, too.

Labels: bee, hangout

Check-Up

So today, I went to Paseo for my check-up. It was the funniest experience ever. I was going to ask about if my irregularity affects a lot of things on me or if there is something wrong with me. The doctor that was assigned to me was a guy so he had no idea what to say to me. He asked me if I wanted an OB, and I told him that my schedule doesn't allow me so.

So he passed me unto a schoolmate of mine's mother (she was a doctor there). So we talked about my sex life, what I'm feeling, what I'm thinking... it was so funny, actually. It's a good thing ate Anna was with me. Haha. It was a funnier experience with her.

What I hate, though, is that my expense reached P450. Damn.

Then Bee called after my check-up. He was asking me how I was and shizz. So we exchanged stories, then he told me there was bad news. He ran over a cat and now its guts were spilled all over his driveway.

And I was like screaming at him, "BEE! GIVE HIM A PROPER BURIAL!" And everybody in FortMed, until we were already in Mercury Drug--were looking at me weirdly. Haha. But it was really funny, though.

But yeah, anyways. Ate Anna and I were picked up by her boyfriend, kuya Earl at Mercury Drug just after my call from Bee. Wow, he's going to pay a lot for that call. *cringes*

So I went to Uni afterwards and met up with Cat and Nicole S. I was supposed to sit-in at the first part of their class, but they were so cramped up in the computer lab downstairs that I just decided to chill somewhere else.

Then Jed saw me and asked if I wanted to come with him and hang. So I did and we hung out at the Gazeebos and talked. Myco came and they played football as I prepared myself to go to COMLAB to finally sit in the COMPART class.

That class sucks so bad.

It's about the basics of Photoshop and I never did start with the basics. Haha.

Yeah, then after that class... it was my PEONE class. I'm really grateful that it was a different prof now. I also think that this prof likes me. Haha. So anyways, yeah.

Today... was a really huge relief for me.

That check-up did me good mentally... but not in my wallet. :(

I am officially--and I'm serious now--broke.

But Bee owes me burger, fries, ice cream, and a lollipop! *smiles*

And I know, that tomorrow will be a better day than yesterday and today! *grins*

I still have to borrow Bee's skateboard anyways, haha (even though he doesn't want me to skate anymore). *beams*

I missed Bee today. :)

Labels: hangout, relief

Public 'Skates' Apology

So I'm listening to Midnight Hour's "Running Away".

I want a happy blog tonight (although I'm listening to sad music right now), even though I can totally say that I'm not in my best mood.

I want to remember the happy times today.

Like when Bee taught me how to skate (I fell twice, but I loved the rush).

Like when we walked at the Spine Road under the moonlit sky... and the sky was really pretty, right? (And now, I suddenly remembered you telling this story about bunnies making rice cakes in Japan. Haha. Adorable. :])

Like the harutans we had in Jollibee, because Myco is such a curious pervert.

Like when we kissed inside the tricycle... just because. :)

And... and... I actually just wanted this to be a happy night. I tried so hard to be happy... because I felt so nervous about tomorrow. About the check-up. About... everything. And I wanted to forget it. At least just for tonight.

I'm sorry, Bee... for being so moody. I try hard naman not to be eh... ang nakakainis lang talaga is that... I know when my curfew is. I texted him what time I will be home, but I don't know. I think Globe is just fucked up. Then you know what? He has the audacity to tell my mum that I shouted at him! I didn't even talk the whole time he was talking to me!

He wants to look good in front of my mum by making me look bad! My mum allows me to be out till 11, actually, but for him (since he told me) he said I have to be home at least by 10. We still follow my curfew, really!

And you know what he told me kanina? He said, in his exact words, "okay, di na ako makikielam."

AND HE TOLD ME THAT, LIKE WHAT? A FEW MONTHS AGO PA. Dear God.

I know, he's my dad. He's just concerned. But seriously, don't say stuff like that when you know you're not going to follow them anyway, diba? Lying is not becoming of him. Now, you know where I get my lying facade from.

... I just wanted to forget things tonight. Well, guess what? I didn't. And now I feel like total shit. :)

... But hey. Keep smiling, right? Because everything will become better.

Unless I explode. And let's hope not.

Now I want to rant on your behalf.

You have so many frustrations.

I want to help, but I feel like I'm part of them.

I hate being moody. Because I know it affects you.

But you just keep on absorbing my frustrations.

I want to ask you a favor... please.

When you see I ignore you or when I bitch to you--

--don't walk away. I don't say it, but I need you a lot.

Because at that time, it's that moment where I really need you.

When I told Myco about wanting space? It was a lie. I want to be around people.

Especially you. Because you make me feel like I'm not alone. And I'm loved.

You know when you're not feeling well or annoyed--

--unless you tell me to go away... I'll always be there for you.

Because I want you to feel that even though the world is crashing down on you,

I'm there with you.

Bea-boo: im really thankful you have joji..
Bea-boo: if nicol left and you didnt have him with you, its
just a sad thought. :(

Labels: bee, cry

Sleepovers are the rage!

So it was Lynette and Lyzette's debut last night.

It was fun. The food was okay, I guess. But I what I loved was that I saw my HS buddies again (the ones I'm close to). I suddenly became part of the 18 serenades and I sung the ever so fateful, Close to You. Haii Bee. That song never gets old for us, ne? Lol.

So Pia, Bea, Aizel, and Andro were already readying to leave around 12, but I didn't want them to go yet. I miss hanging around with them... but anyways, they still did so the "Cobra crew" (lulz) and I went inside the covered area and watched as Sho sang karaoke (No Woman No Cry).

It was funny. We were supposed to go swimming, but everybody was deadbeat because the crew went skateboarding while I jammed. Haha.

Around 1 AM (Sunday morning already), we went to Bee's pad and had a sleepover.

Being the only girl had its perks, yanno? Haha. Most of their attention was partially on me (or on the electronic devices around), since... hello? I'm a girl. I have boobs. Haha.

Bee and I were on the bed (ooh, rawr! :P you still have to make it up to me, Bee. ;]), Ralph was on the lower part of the bed beside me, while Sho and Roy stayed on the futon. We watched Click, Wrestling, and part of Groundhog Day. My sleep, however, was very relaxing. I woke up around 11 AM and I felt so replenished.

So when I woke up, I felt hyper. :P

I played teh guitar (Infidelity), Bee bled (lol, he was so cute), Roy told me stories, Sho bummed while he stayed half asleep, and Ralph played the PSP. Then we watched some Sunday morning cartoons on Disney Channel.

Roy and Ralph left around 11.50 AM, though. So Bee, Sho, and I were left. We watched something on Crunchyroll, called the Globe service hotline, and ate lunch. :)

Bee dropped me home around 1.32 PM. Haha. BEE~ YOU STILL OWE ME! :P

What I learned yesterday?

Those people you thought you knew before?

... Well, they changed now and they're not the same as what you remember them. Move on like they did. Hurts at first, but... you'll accept that fact someday.

And those bitches you hated in High School?

They're still bitches. So hate them some more. :)

Labels: bee, debut, hidden sexy times, sleepover, soulja crew

Emote in SB

I feel proud and happy.

Most men won't show what they truly feel about a certain something and in most cases, it would be considered as insensitive. Or their pride is more important than releasing the stress bottled up inside.

But you know what I love?

I love it when my man shows and tells me what he feels, because it tells me how much he trusts me. How much loves me that he can show me his vulnerability.

I love it when my man holds me tight when he feels scared or any emotion. When he feels like I need a hug. Or just when he just wants to hold me for the heck of it.

I love it when he looks at me and smiles. And I feel that... hey... I can still make you happy.

I love it when he accompanies me to places just because. Because even if he has a busy schedule, he still finds the time to spend his time with me. And I feel like I'm still part of his life.

I love it when he holds my hand... because I feel like when he does so, he still needs me. And when he lets go... I feel my palm tingling and suddenly feel so... empty.

I love it when we tease each other like morons. We never fail to laugh together and I love that feeling.

I feel proud and happy--

--because my man is all those things I love and more.

So tonight... I'm off to Lynette and Lyzette's

debut with Joji and the others. Sleepover!

Yay. :]

Labels: bee

We ate... like... ALOT! :DD

Friday, September 12, 2008.

Bumbum here! today, bee and I went to paseo after BASPHOTO. stayed in starbucks to chill with Roy, Jordan, Vernie, and Migs. And then, we went to Roy's jungle house and played Wii, watched something in the internet, added app. on iTouch, and played the guitar. After that, we went to Paseo again to eat at um-ni. a freakishly good Korean restaurant! we ate alot.. like..

ALOT!

now were freaking full and cant even stand up!

we rest for a bit inside the restaurant for 30 mins then i brought Bibiboo to her house.

maybe readers are surpise why I'm the one who is writing her blog for today. haha! well, it's because she has a problem with her internet thingy. and.. yeah.. she told me to write what happen today. well, me has to skat as we'll

"good night foo!"

Labels: bumbum bee um-ni cobra

Plurk me softly.

I'm addicted to Plurk now, seriously.

Anyways, today was fun. :P

After my 1 PM class (Physics), Bee and I went to Paseo for some quick necessity shopping. Afterwards, ate Pandesals at Little Bread Corner. Went to school around 2.40, then hung out at Gazeebo since his class was already done.

I had class around 4.20, though, but I didn't attend. I was too lazy.

Consequently, we went to McDo to buy some take-out and off to his pad (but not before dropping off Roy, Myco, and Vernie).

Some ~~fore~~playing, eating cheeseburger and fries, hacking my iPod Touch... yes. Haha. Then watching Rush Hour while everything went on.

You: I really think you're the one for me.
Me: *kilig* Ngee... di nga? *beams*

Really, today was fun. :P

Plurkings

Labels: bee, love, sexy times

Haaay.

First day of Uni (PHYLAB, BASPHTO, and RATVPRN). Chinese restaurant. Roy's pad to play Wii. Shakeys and got treated out. Really, really full today. :)

"I'm so lucky."

"... I just miss you agad..."

Labels: bee, hangout

He wanted you to wait.

I know you're a friend. I really do respect you.

But can't I get some consideration back?

Because I sacrificed rest for you. You wanted to hang-out, but I knew deep inside you probably wanted me to say no. And yet you tried to ask me still anyways. At first I said no, but then your ex PMed me.

And he wanted to do and say the sweetest things.

He wanted me to become the bridge since he was too far away.

He wanted to remind you that he was still there and that he still loves you.

But you moved on quickly, didn't you? We had the same situation before. And I truly understand.

But you keep giving false clues that you don't want to move on yet. That you were the desperate ex-girlfriend that still holds on. Or were those faux?

I pity the ex, hunny. Really. Because he still loves you.

"8", he said. He asked me to pluck a flower from my garden today and give it to you. He told me to tell you that when he comes back from his business trip, he'll give you something better.

But we didn't get to meet up today, didn't we?

Nicole S and I had to wait at Jollibee for over an hour, hunny, while you were at soulja boii's house eating with his family, most probably. We didn't have any money. We didn't know what to do. We can't go to Bel-Air just to meet up with you guys.

I didn't even have enough load to even call you anymore.

I'm scared as shit commuting, hunny. But for you, I did.

And yet the fruits of my hardship didn't pay off.

I love you, but please, take consideration. We're friends. But don't abuse.

Labels: irritated, tired

Rubber Ducky on the Tubby

Enrollment at school. The wait was long, but entertaining. Bee and I went to McDo afterwards for a grab and went to his pad to chill. Although, there wasn't any electricity (we wonder why) we looked for an alternative to keep us cool.

So we found comfort in his bathtub and chilled there. And damn was it cold.

Afterwards, on his futon. :"P

Then off to Paseo. :>

We met up with Roy, Jordiee, and Nicole Sandoval at Starbucks. They wanted to go to Church, though, for Mama Mary's birthday, so Bee and I stayed at SB. We had a strawberry and cream frappe and this weird vegetable sandwich. While waiting for Roy and Jordiee to come back, though, I suddenly got hyper and funnied up Bee. :)

When Roy and Jordiee came back, we had a photoshoot! A really silly one! And I absolutely cannot wait for my own SLR. Seriously.

Afterwards, off to Jollibee for a late dinner around 10 PM. I got home around 11.

Today... somewhat of a different ambiance. I can't really say what happened but the lightness of the load--I can feel it. Hopefully, this is a blessing to me. Really. Sana sunod-sunod... and to Bee... Thank you for being there for me. You don't know it... but you're helping me through whatever I'm feeling right now. And words can't explain how much I appreciate you. How much I love you. And how much I miss you...

Because as much as I say outloud that "It's alright if you go..." I want to hold you tight and take them back because "You're one of the reasons why I'm staying strong."

So thank you.

Labels: bee, hangout, sexy times

Words I Wish I Remembered

I wish I can remember all those things you said before.

You: [saying something about naming our kids]
Roji: So you guys are planning to get married?
Me: [in my head] I sure hope so...
You: [outloud; with a smile] Yes.
Me: [inside; crying happily] At least he had the
courage to say what I wanted to say.
Roji: Wow. So... you found the one?

... for me, there's no "the one".

If you keep on looking for that certain one, you'll be planning all your life. I want the spontaneity of life.

I love it that whenever after class, you'll sometimes wait for me and ask me out. Of course, I'll seem hesitant at first, but deep inside... I love it when you ask me if I would like to do something or eat out with you that day.

I love it when you suddenly send me random sweet things (like videos, songs, photoshopped pictures, etc.) and you'd make me giddy for the whole day, week, month, year... forever. Strong, intense passion. I can just feel it through your work...

... or you just being cute, period. :">

I love it when we have those off-moments and you'll be the first one to try and make everything better. But I'll always stay pouty until I couldn't take it anymore and we'll kiss and make-up--more like kiss and make-out. ;)

I love it when we make up so many reasons on why we love each other. And how much we love each other... like how I love you like the stars we always yearn to see during nocturn time. How I love you like the air that we breathe. How I love the way you look at me.

And I love it when we crash. And stick. And mold against each other.

Because feeling you around me makes everything else drown to nothingness. And I feel that I'm not alone... because I'm with you. :)

And you make everything better.

Labels: bee

Roy's 20th Confession

Roy's 20th birthday bash.

Swimming (kissing underwater ;]). Soundtripping. Karaoke. Drinking sessions. The works. :)

I learned something yesterday.

Always know the consequences of what you feel is right.

What you feel is right sometimes is the wrong one to feel.

*sighs*

I still need sleep (got home around 4 AM)... and I think I gained weight. Damn.

Labels: bee, birthday, soulja crew

Wii Slumber

Slumber party at Winston's pad.

Don't Mess with the Zohan, Wii, tambays, and some needed nap.

Even if it was for a short while.

I still feel weak, though. And sleep isn't very kind to me nowadays. I wake up shivering and my body wanting to give in--which is never a good feeling.

Anyways, today was Nicol's cremation.

... I actually don't want to think about it much anymore.

*sigh*

Labels: hangout

Lighter

"We're going to guard your bodeh," says my four bodyguards.

So tonight felt lighter than yesterday.

Which is good... *sigh*

Labels: tired

A friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway. :')

Friendship ..haaay.. is when you share the wasted looks in a camera and when you dont care about looking loony or silly. xD

I see you everywhere.

I wish I could see your smile again. That smile... that beautiful smile.

You were always beautiful to me. I wanted you to find your own happiness. I wanted to help.

But I didn't want you to end it like this.

"Suffer silently, Smile always.."

I didn't know you felt this way. I wish I knew beforehand. I wish I could turn back time.

I wish we can correct the mistake... but it's too late. Because you're gone, baby. You're in Heaven with God. But I wish it wasn't so soon. It's too soon.

We're all in doubt. I knew you wouldn't take your life away just like that. Without a letter. A note. An email... anything. We're thinking maybe it's foul play. Tell me, baby. Give me a sign that we're wrong or if we're right.

We need to know.

I can't eat. I can't sleep. I'm sick and my body is too weak now.

Bee and I are paranoid, baby. We don't know what really happened. All of us don't. We need to know.

I don't want to make it hard for my best friend. ^^

We didn't want to lose you.

You said you didn't want to lose any of us. Not again... but we were always here. We were just waiting for you to tell us what we need to know. What we wanted to know so we could help. We wanted to help. I wanted to help, Nic.

I know I kept telling you my problems before. Those little, insignificant problems compared to yours... I want to apologize about those. I babble too much. You know that. And you just kept absorbing them... taking them in... and I didn't know that they were already burdens to you.

I didn't know you thought about my problems so deeply.

I'm really, really sorry.

Nicky : give her a rock and she'll hug you. hahaha!

You are a person who always thought of other people before yourself. You are someone who we consider as the closest thing to Heaven now. You said in your blog that I sort of didn't respect the religion we are in. I know. I feel shitty about that. But look, Nikki ko, I'm coming back to where we started from. Our religion is the thing I'm hoping for right now.

I know you're in Heaven.

You deserve a spot on God's lap.

You are our angel.

You know that you're important to me. You know that I'll always be there for you, trying my hardest to keep up with your nightlife, your problems, and everything.

Baby, I wish you were still here.

We love you.

Therese Dehesa: she gets so sad when she thinks she isnt making you guys happy

Labels: bageegee, love, nicol noble

Fifth

Happy monthsary, Bumbum! =)

Our fifth monthsary and our baby daughter was with us again...

Physically... for the last time.

I love you.

Will work for hugs -nic
23 days ago.

Labels: bageegee, bee, love, monthsary, nicol noble