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Space in Love

August 1. Our fourth monthsary. (:

I loved every minute of it.

I hope you feel better soon...

Added:

12:59 AM; August 1, 2008.

Labels: 4th, bee, hidden sexy times, monthsary

MY NAILS DIED!

... my nails died today because of my butchering.

But anyways. Today was great.

I'm improving with my communication skills. Wee! Got 3rd spot for Top 5 Debaters in Miss Nancy's class. *beams*

AND AND~

I'm getting hyper again after so many days.

I missed the feeling. <3

Labels: hyper

Tiresome

Today.

Frustration mixed with this feeling of... uncertainty.

I couldn't take it. I couldn't go home with this feeling... so I hung out with Cathy and Nicole S. today. Honestly, I couldn't focus on anything today and it just sucks to feel this way.

I love hanging out with them... they calm me down and distract me. *smiles* I love them to bits.

We talked a lot.

Anyways, we "tried" to watch Over Her Dead Body, but the DVD kept skipping. And Cat needed to go home so we dropped her off. Apparently, though, we were too distracted with our talking and our giddiness so, yeah. Some street dancing and street gossip went on. Lol.

Cathy never did go home after that. Lol.

So we went back to Nicole's house and I got my stuff. We said goodbye to Nicole and Cat and I went to the park to talk some more. I just remembered how much I love talking. Haha.

Around 8, we went back to her place and ate dinner.

Then my dad picked me up at Rustan's. We went to Paseo and ran some errands--but all the while I stayed inside the car. Somehow, I felt too tired to move...

But I'm just trying to love you,
in every kind of way.

Labels: frustrated, tired

Vintage

Today... I had another photoshoot.

With IJ Mendez and Cathy Trivino.

As well as Kim Narvaez.

Since my PEFORXX Class got cancelled, Cathy and I went to my pad to chill for a moment before the actual photoshoot. :)

The shoot was fun. So... tomorrow, we're planning for another one. Just for fun. Haha.

After that, went to class. It was boring, but Bee waited for me. Aw... then we went out to eat at Shakeys and we weren't able to finish all of our meal. Haha. Ohwells.

We then went to my village and hung there till 10. We stayed at the park and chilled. I... missed it. I missed him. *sighs*

But hey, the bright side... another week of school to see him. Love the thought!

SO!

Here are some more shots

from the Photoshoot.

Enjoy.

More to be added next post. :D

Labels: bee, photoshoot, vintage

Surprise

Photographer: Catherine Trivino

So yeah... I'm officially going to start modelling again. :)

I'm trying to build up my portfolio while I'm waiting for my D-SLR. Gahr. I seriously can't wait for it. Tomorrow... I have a photoshoot with IJ Mendez after my morning class. Then, I have swimming (hopefully I'll be able to make it) at West Grove with a bunch of friends.

I also remembered... I haven't talked to Bee in two days...

I miss him.

But anyways.

All day, I bummed around. I ate chocolates, listened to some tunes, tweaked my laptop, had a quick nap, and... ate a lot of foodage. Seriously... I'm going to get fat just doing this everyday. Lol.

This week... I have no idea what will happen. August 1 [Friday] will be our fourth monthsary and Bee will go back to Makati for Sho's birthday. So... yeah. And I still haven't bought any gifts for Sho. I better start looking around.

... Saturday... They're going to Warehouse and I have no idea what I'll do on that day. I mean, Bee asked me if I wanted to come along but I'm not even sure if he really meant it. I mean... I'm such a prude when it comes to clubbing--actually no, but you know what I mean.

Gah. Why am I like this?

Like... why do I say NO to the things I want? Except for Joji, though--Cos I said yes, and I love it.

Boredom keeps doing this to me... making me think too much. Bah. I hate thinking.

OH OH! And major fuck. I have a long test for GRPCOMM on Wednesday. And I have a report to think about for INTPHIL... and a 9-page paper about Philippine History Controversies for PHILHIS...

Yes. Doomed is thee.

Addendum:

Oh, and I know who my "stalker" is now. JC. You creep. Lol.

GUESS WHAT!
I just got a modelling opportunity from Nicol's cousin.
Oh my god. I can't wait. :)

Labels: bageegee, boredom, crap, crazy, nicol noble, paranoia, stalk

Stalker

So. Hi.

Seems like I have a "stalker". I'm not sure. Haha. But whoever you are, uh. Yes. Haha. I'm actually rather speechless. Threatening me online--telling me to wear a helmet... LOL. But thank you so much for the praises. I appreciate them... OH! And you can't have my "Epitome of Hotness" boyfriend. :)

So anyways, today was interesting. For WRTPRNT, we didn't do anything except... well. I don't know. I wasn't listening, but the class was done in 20 minutes. Which was a relief for me since my attention span was little to nothing.

As for WRTRTV, I PASSED MY EXAM. Can I get a WOOT WOOT? *arms flail around*

After class, I went home to chill for a few, then went to Paseo for dinner with family plus Tita Jeanvie (dad's girlfriend).

I saw this Japanese baby and he kept looking at me and smiling. It was adorable cos he just kept looking and stretching his arm out to me. Haha.

Then we ate and I think I gained a few pounds tonight. But ohwells. Whatever. LOL!

I'm bored tonight. Nothing to do except... bum around. Although, I have a lot to do--and I seriously mean it... a lot--I'm just too lazy at the moment.

So tonight, I shall procrastinate and waste time doing absolutely nothing productive.

... Or maybe not.

Labels: boredom, food, stalk

In Rain

No worries, no worries.

I'll be fine. Cos everything seems dandy.

When it's washed away and cleaned up.

Oh, nothing fancy.

Lies are just made up.

I got a new iPod Touch alongside my iPhone now.

I'm a happy camper when it comes to material things. How unfortunate I couldn't be emotionally.

I miss you already. He's probably at the Black Out event in Araneta to watch ate Liezl and the others. Hmm, hope he has fun. O:

Labels: sane

Worth the trip.

Haaai.

I feel so inconsiderate.

In exchange for the fun I had, I get scolded. But... I dont know. It's like... I feel it was worth it. For my part, at least. And that's where the inconsiderate part comes into play.

But anyway, had another photoshoot with Ali. The theme now is Sex.

Then hung out with Bee, Nicole, and Roy after my "class". Gossip 101. Lol.

Went to Bee's pad to do my prod for WRTRTV and my Feature Story for WRTPRNT.

This week is full of stress and I want to cry. :)

Weblink for PHILHIS: http://www.tribo.org/history/index.html

Labels: bee, crazy, hangout

I just might...

Today was tiring.

Debate first thing in the morning. Anti-Death Penalty. I think we did great.

Then went to Paseo to meet up with Bee. Then to Caltex to eat at KFC with Syrus. Afterwards, straight to ATC. My plans were kinda... altered, though. A "little" shopping then after that, around 6, went to Bee's place.

We hung out and teased each other till I got drained. Lmao.

Now... I'm sleepy. Really sleepy.

Labels: bee, sexy times

While watching 3 movies in a row...

I missed you. :D

So. Freaking. Much.

Head is spinning.

*hearts*

[Machine Girl, Superhero Movie, My Super Ex-Girlfriend]

TOMORROW.

... We're so going to cream the Pro-Death Penalty people to mash.

Look out. :D

Labels: bee, sexy times

Everybody's changing...

... and I don't know why.

So today. I was busy doing... I don't know, but I was with friends the whole day. Enjoyed and treasured. Seriously. We played in the SC some board games (I won the Snakes and Ladders and Mark didn't want to play after that, lol). We hung out at the Gazeebos for four straight hours and ate there.

Then had a photoshoot with Ali for his Tripod shiz. It was fun.

Met up with Bee for a quick chill, then I was off to class.

The day was quick and sweet... I wouldn't change it for anything else.

Highlight of my day:

While I was walking back from the clinic, a little boy looked
at me, smiled, and said, "hey."

I looked at him with an arched brow but I replied with the
same greeting. He winked at me and said, "what's your name?"

... And I was astonished. This little boy will grow up as a
womanizer... but it was a funny encounter.

Labels: bee, hangout

I'm either fat or skinny...

But I think I'm mostly getting fat ~~I can hear the protests~~.

No, seriously. People think I'm getting skinnier, but I'm not... except on the thighs. I think it's getting toned. Haha. But hell, I quit Lucid (Dance Troupe) today. I couldn't take the pressure of too many orgs on my shoulders--figuratively. I'll probably just go clubbing or something.

Anyways, today... my brain died. Yes. Totally. Indubitably. Like... seriously.

It died.

I flunked WRTRTV's midterms. By 2 points... Two. Freaking. Points. I mean... what the hell?

But yeah, my stomach was full, though. My dad's girlfriend treated us out for dinner and I think it's one of the reasons why I'm getting fat. Food, food, food. But that's alright... I actually wanted to get fat, but... I just remembered... How am I going to fit in my clothes? Haha.

So yeah. Then we dropped her off at Balibago so she can commute or something to Manila. I wish I could come. I want to go some place far and just... chill. I hate being stuck here at Laguna. I miss Alabang. I miss going out during midnights. I miss the drinking sessions. I miss the jammin' sessions...

I miss everything about Alabang.

I especially miss my best friends there. *sigh*

Next year, in my OJT, I am so going to stay at Alabang again. Or probably at Makati. Either way, I'm going to enjoy myself there. Gah. Can't wait.

Labels: alabang, food

Date for Five

Went out with Bee, Andy, Ar-Ar, and Roy tonight.

We watched Batman: The Dark Knight--which was too freaking long but actually good, especially Heath Ledger--and went out to Paseo for a drink at Cinemabar. Overall, a fun day. *smiles*

Labels: bee, hangout

Tired

Walked home.

Tired from Animo Teatro meeting.

Busy day. Tiring. It was my mum's flight today... suddenly... I feel cold.

Hung out with Alexis.

Bee's hurting bad... wish I could take care of him, but I'm too far away... Wish I can use the car. *major sigh*

S1: Isn't life a gray area?
Me: I don't know... I just live it.

Labels: tired

Sakit

Kasi may sakit ako.

Kasi pagod na ako.

Kasi di napapansin ng ibang tao--

Ako ngayon ay nandito sa aking kwarto at nag-iisip. Nag-mumukmok.

Binigyan ako ng online-blog memorandum ni Nicol para sa aking kaarawan noong nakaraang ika-labing apat ng Hulyo. Maraming salamat, Bageegee. :)

Ngayong araw, napagod ako ng husto. Huling araw ng aking ina dito sa Pilipinas at kami ay umikot sa buong Alabang para bumili ng kung anu-ano. Halos gastos ko ngayong araw ay umaabot sa anim na libo. Wala na naman akong pera.

Inihatid kami ni Edwin ~~salamat Win-Win~~! papunta ng ATC. Masaya naman kami ngayong araw pero di lang talaga maganda ang aking pakiramdam kaya hindi ko masyado na-enjoy ang araw ko ngayon.

Sabi sa akin ng aking ina, dapat ko daw i-try ang paggamit ng wikang Filipino pa-minsan minsan kaya heto--isang Pinoy na blog para sa araw na ito.

Hay. Hindi na ako makapag-isip. Bukas nalang ulit.

Ngayong araw na ito, ang aking naisip:

Distance.

Time.

Emotions.

JC [Beda] on Eric [Beda]:

"he says ur very photogenic and he digs your bf."

My mum's flight.

My grades.

My non-existent sanity.

Labels: bageegee, nicol noble, sane, where

Date, yes?

In the middle of the day, you saw me on the bench and you sat down beside me. And I felt like the world stopped for that moment. I love how you looked at me with wide eyes and a smile on your face.

"Hey."

And I felt my stomach grumble. The hunger was coming. But I didn't want to move--because everything seems like it's there to complete me... and you were the last puzzle piece I've been waiting for.

Time had never felt like it took so long. I kept anticipating when I would finally see you again. And as I turn my head to the right, through the small gap of the glass, I can see you. Your yellow shirt and your gray beanie... they had never felt so soothing to the eyes at that moment.

I stare down again on my paper and a smile spread out through my lips. And then we wait.

I come out of the room and instantly run towards you. I wrap my arms around you tightly and a smile appeared on my lips. Your warmth. Oh, how I missed it. And we go down the building with my hands in yours.

Please, don't let go.

We travel through the far part of our city and you take me to this place. We see the scenes play out in the big screen with popcorns and waffles and drinks--and it's like our first date all over again.

Lips on lips.

Head on shoulders.

And popcorns stuffed in our mouths like crazy.

And I love how you make me feel.

Under the clear sky, we talk and you play me the tunes of sweet serenades. It's where we started. It's where we learned. It's where I became to know you with your vulnerability exposed. Your park.

And it started to rain. But it stopped in a while.

And then I felt this throb in my ankle. You took me home.

We walk.

We sit.

And we talk.

My park.

"You're... you're different from the other women I dated.

You make me feel like I'm always welcome."

"Parang... ang hirap ng makahanap ng katulad mo..."

"Why would I help you [get Johnny Depp] when I already have you?"

"I'm so in love with you."

Labels: story, you

Officially 18

Was late for P.E. for an hour.

Lunch over at my pad. :)

Watched a movie and then by 3.30, went back to school.

Class: midterms for ENGLTRI.

Afterwards, went to Lucid and Animo Teatro's meeting. Then to Church to pray for my continuous existence with Bee.

As soon as the mass finished, we went around Paseo to look for a restaurant under the rain. But we couldn't find any so we went to a Chinese restaurant near Walter Mart. It was a really fulfilling meal. We tried to eat duck and for me--chicken feet. Ack.

But it was good.

We went back to my place after the meal and watched P.S. I Love You. That movie just makes me cry... but I fell asleep. Haha. So Bee went home around 10.

Then just got word that he almost got hit by a truck. Fuck damn. Never again will I let him drive tired and sleepy. Never. Again.

So yeah.

I'm sleepy now too. Gah. I can't get over the fact that I'm officially 18.

Bibiboo: look for someone better.

Bibiboo: doesnt have to be someone who looks good.

Bibiboo: just as long as you feel good with him. :)

Bibiboo: it's the chemistry. and youll see that it doesnt
matter whatever you guys look like together... it's how you blend. ;)

Labels: 18th, bee, debut

Debut Party

Yesterday was my advanced debut party. But before that, midterms.

So my brain was dead even before the party. But it was alright. I love that people who are dear to me came. It meant a lot. :)

Especially those who came from far away places just to spend some time with me. *sniffles*

We saw a snake, btw. Haha.

*sigh* Memories... how I love them. :]

I didn't get to sleep as much. Slept at 5 then I woke up around 8.

Afterwards, went to Pasig. Stayed at my tita's house till 6 PM. Went to church then went around the malls nearby. It was quick, though, since there's class tomorrow.

But in all seriousness... I'm bleeding tired.

Tomorrow... P.E. *sighs* and the official day of my 18th.

Labels: debut, party